Because I Miss Her

I am reposting this because it is really close to the anniversary of my mother's death and this year I am really feeling it.  I miss her a lot and thought maybe this would help a bit

LOST IN TIME

I dreamed I stood upon a ledge

And looked into the sky,

Then I sat down at the edge

And I began to cry,

For I couldn't find you anywhere

Though I looked both high and low.

Your absence sent me to a place

I didn't want to go.

I can't think in terms of forever.

It's like you just went out for a while.

I still expect you to come home soon

With a story to tell and a smile.

But tomorrow was never a promise

That's something we forget.

We had so much left to do

That we hadn't even started yet.

Sometimes late at night,

In the dark I think of you

You told me it would be this way,

But I didn't think it was true.

We don't appreciate our loved ones

Until one day they are gone,

And you're all alone and suffering

While the rest of the world moves on.

So now I'm crying in my bedroom,

And asking for a prayer

Because I'm missing someone special

And somehow it's just not fair.

There's so much I didn't tell you.

I thought that it could wait.

I thought I had forever,

Now I realize I'm too late.

Did you know how much I loved you?

Did you know you were my friend?

Do you know how much I cried for you?

How I lost it in the end?

It hurt so much to watch you go.

All I could do was cry.

People should live forever

They shouldn't have to die.

But I can't think in terms of forever.

It's like you just went out for a while.

I keep expecting you back soon

With a story to tell and a smile.