The last time I said I love you...

It seems every time I say I love you it turns out bad. Either the person moves away or I move away.

My best friend of 5 years we are now 8 hours(3 states) away from each other.

My cousin was close to me more then anyone will ever know. The day I found out I was moving I cried but he told me it would be ok and I could still see him. He was right I came to see him over my summer vacation. That was the last time I seen him alive. It was an awful day I was not reay to leave at all but I had to go back home. I called my cousin to tell him I was leaving the last thing he said to my was remember just because you up in New York does not mean you can replace me I am still your favorite person. I love dee; dont forget to call me when you make it home. I did call him when I got back to New York And everyday after school too,but about two years later I called him after school but there was no answer I knew something was wrong but I did not know what. The next day I was watching tv when the news came on and it said the was a shooting where my cousin lived so I watched to see who it was. About five minutes into watching the news I found out the only person who knew everyting there was to know about me had left me forever. It was the hardest thing for me to over come.

After my little sister also die a year later she meant the world to me. I remember one day I had come to see her and she did not know I was coming. I went to her bus stop and waited there for her. When she seen me she came running and threw her arms around me. I stayed with her for the next two days we had a lot of fun that weekend.That monday I got up with her and as she go ready for school I packed because my mom was coming to get me.  I wasked her to the bus stop before she go on I huged her and said I love you. When I got home I felt bad I wanted to stay longer but I could not. About two weeks later my best friend called me and told me that my sister hand been shot by her father who then shot himself.

So the two people I love more the life itself are now gone.

Your probley are wondering were all of this is comming from. The guy I have been dating for 4 months now has said I love you to me. I can reture it because I am scared. The two people I let love me  are now gone...Now I dont think hes will pass away,but what if I move again or he moves?