Wondering

I feel this article deeply.

Thank you Sis It came from her heart

She has felt and saw so much in her short life.I wish more children would look at life so clear!

Most definitely sounds 14 alright, boy, I actually remember it so well. Asked all the same as well. Maybe all these years later, remembering those questions, some I still have, but some I can give her a little clue what the years will do. Do I wish I were someone else? Love Pinks song, check it out, Don't let me get me, wishes for a day in the life of someone else, cause she's a hazard to herself. So am I, always have been, but I guess I am used to and comfortable with me now, whether others are or not, and I don't mind me at all, so no, don't wanna be nobody else, just bring new and different problems I ain't used to and don't need to handle. Without having gone through all that I have (more than I would have ever believed I could survive) or having seen all that I have or the past being what it was, then I would not have had the sum total of all that it took to make me, well, me. I like me okay, I have no real regrets on who I am, and like my company pretty good too, so got to have everything I did, even the horrors, or wouldn't be me. I do sometimes wish that I was finally too old to be crying myself to sleep at night anymore or having a heart left to ache the way it does, but, at least it shows that I can and do still feel, crying is cleansing and helpful to anyone to get things out that way, and I am pretty sure I don't want to be heartless, the cold uncaring type person either. Ying, yag - light, dark, where ever there is bad there is good, and with good there is bad, to get what you want, you gots to have a bit of what you don't. All about balance in all things, all happy and good all the time, then you would be numb to that and not experience joy, that is a horror.
Eventually everyone either accepts you or just isn't in your life, they (nor you) can change who you are and you are a caring person, who won't end up accepting that??
Definitely don't ever want to be able to read anyone's minds, and don't want to know what people think about me, that would likely hurt anyone, it's of no importance and the only thing that counts is what I think of me and the things that I do, how they make me feel. Inevitably we are the only ones that have to live with us, go to bed with us at night, look in the mirror at ourself in the morning and travel this journey of life, so how we feel about ourself is the only thing that matters in the end. Know now, and know always, they will lie to your face, human nature, don't put any stock in what people tell you, listen to your heart, what you know to be right. I'd love to change the world, tried to change the world in fact and failed. Don't know what to do so I had to leave it up to you. And you, and you and you! No one person can, but many people doing little good things for others who turn around and do a good thing for someone else who also does, all of us, together, one at a time stacked up with each other will finally make that change, it don't happen over night and takes some time to see the difference, but if you and I and all just keep doing those nice things, that would change the world. People only hate and fear that which they don't understand, tell them, make them learn and understand, look to see and listen to hear, and one by one they won't anymore, again a slow process, but each person works on one person and so on and so on and soon all will hear! I think all of us have been amazed once we got out in this big world on our own and needed help, to find how much more our parents seem to know, how glad you are to have them and for their help, and that one day too soon you won't have them anymore and you will miss them. Love and appreciate them now while you can and then no one has regrets once they can't. And yes, every moment bad things will happen to good people, and good things will happen too, to you to the good to everyone. Enjoy that good you have now, this moment, for that very reason. This moment is all anyone really has or is promised, yesterday is all gone, there might not be a tomorrow, don't miss today. Be in the sun, love it, and be glad for it as well, now while you can and are. There is always only now and today. Those material folks will always be and will always regret. Money and things more easily lost than to acqquire and have never made anyone happy, never satisfied, always must be more, and still not happy. Lose it all and then and only then will anyone really know just what they really need and do not need, what's important and what's not. Things will never comfort them, keep them warm at night, care about them or satisfy them. Only people comfort people, keep another warm, care for another, help together to feel happiness, to be satisfied, being wrapped up too much in money and things leaves them with nothing. Have something. Priorities. Just enough. Live always as if will be no tomorrow, love always as if you've never been hurt, work always like you don't need the money, have fun. Make memories. Share, help others, these are the things that give you everything you need, not the car or big screen or whatever that is so easily gone, so empty to the soul, and not able to journey through life with you. Some people may only get it when it's too late, don't be them, be hopeful that they too learn and don't have to remain always to walk alone those last miles of their own journey's. You know the priorites and the right order, love first and family always, people have to be first priority or one is left with nothing. Only after them can be jobs and money and whatever material, with out the first, what use the latter? And then you need less, as I do, and everyone else here as well, then you really think you do. When you have nothing left and then survive is the only time anyone really can know just how little they really need at all. Wishing and hoping and praying all okay, but don't do it while your life goes away still wishin and a hopin, nothing is impossible, one small thing, one person at a time. No one person can do great things really, but all people can do small things with great love. Don't stop doing them. You control how you feel this way, and you will feel good, and that will infect others and they will feel good too, and they in turn pass that on, and on and on, and oh my, then one day, all good stays...............
Keep trucking honey, the journey is hard, long and confusing, but quite lovely if you don't forget to look, sounds so wonderful if you don't forget to hear, feels fabulous all together. Always go out in the sun, and never forget, no matter how you feel, and smile at everyone, they will catch that smile and feel it now too, and when you think about it, though you felt bad since you kept smiling now you feel it too!!!!
Enjoy and experience your life sweetie, make it yours.................

Very vivid and insightful poem-wonderfully expressd with raw emotion! Tell Allie to keep on writing-great work from a 14 y/o!!

Thank you for the nice comment Mari...I will let her know what you said

wow, i feel this way too much... that's alot for a 14 year old to feel... sad...
Blessings always...

Thank you for the comment Necee
I'm going to show her the comments when she comes to visit
She is interested in them

I hope she isn't really as sad as she sounds Elaine. She did a good job writing. So many kids today don't really know why God put them here. Teens go into the world feeling very empty.
I noticed she prays ... that's great. I was in my twenties before I actually became a child of God. I was religious before that...but wasn't a real believer. If I can be of any help to either of you, talking about the Lord, please feel free to email me.
God bless both of your.

Thank you so much for your kind words Glome..
She was very sad when she wrote it but is doing better now
I pray she keeps doing better.
Maybe she will write a happy one someday

Young girls go through so many changes physically and emotionally. Expressing herself by writing is a good thing. Your support in her life as changes are happening is very good too. Thanks

Thank you Pepsie

Very insightful for a 14 year old.

Thanks Marge she's been through a lot

All the time!

Thanks Marsha

So sweet. I hope your words outpouring your heart will fuse your bond.

Thank you Denise

Nice writing and picture, thanks for the share.

Hi JoAnne Thanks for stopping by

I wish wishes for all.

Hi Donna
Thanks for stopping by

That was wonderful Elaine, Allie has talent beyond her years. Sound like she has been to hell and back, or one very good imiganation. Tell her to keep writing. The writing was wonderful, but the story almost brought tears to my eyes.
Good that she copyrighted it. That way she can print it out and can continue her story like Laura Ingels did on Little House. Make a series, could be turned into a TV series.

Hi Donald
Thanks for stopping by and leaving such a very nice comment..I will show it to Allie


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Great work Elaine

Hi DN


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I think we've all felt that way, she expressed it beautifuly!!!

for the comment on my article!

I do so appreciate your coming and talking to me each day. Hope your long weekend was a great one.

very nice poem. thanks for sharing

Cute picture

I often times wish there wasn't any hurt in the world.

interesting and beautiful picture.

Very insightful! Your article raises interesting questions about the human condition - questions that are so sweet and so profound. Well done, Allie! :)

Hi Everyone Thanks so much for stopping by Wondering

((Elaine)) Allie is a very gifted young Lady with much wisdom on Life's meaning and how it should be I would give her a billion point if I could or more for such a care free Spirit she had with her words ((((Hugs)))) Mj
Tell ((Allie)) keep up the AWESOME WRITING!!!!

Hi Mj
I'll tell Allie what you wrote. It will make her so happy and maybe she will write more,I know she's capable :)
Thanks so much
Love Ya

Wow! I feel that way right now. Allie has a lot of wisdom for her age.

Hi Teresa, Thanks for stopping by Wondering..Allie will be happy with the nice comment you left for her

Wow, Elaine, Donald hit it right on the nose......your granddaughter is so very talented......she is far beyond her 14 years........such intensity in her writing....such depth..............it is just incredible. Tell her that I think she has an incredible writing ability and I truly hope she will continue to write more as time goes on. I could feel the intensity of each line of that poem......wow.....what else can be said?
You have a brilliant granddaughter, and I know you must be extremely proud of her!

Very nice!

very well written... wonderful wondering...

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I wish her and you happiness and hope she sees dreams come true

With you there for her, maybe some of her wishes will come true!

Your grand daughter is a very talented writer. Her writing touched me coming from her inner feelings and thoughts.

Wow, I don't know how I missed this post! Your grandaughter is a very insightful young woman! Tell her I enjoyed her writing and I think she is wise beyond her years!

WOW....There's some heavy duty stuff here, especially coming from a 14 year old. I think that eveybody feels something like this at different times in life. Perhaps tv and movies give a different idea, glamorizing the trials and tribulations that I believe inevitably shape us, our personalities and every aspect of our lives. This is life....I don't feel it was every meant to be easy and it would be boring if it was too easy. We would lose ourselves in things that really don't matter, as many have done along the way.
As for me, I would not change one thing that I have experienced, good or bad because I truly believe that everything shaped the person that I am today.
I'm happy being me and knowing what I know and have lived through. I don't strive for glory or extreme beauty or money but am content knowing that I am honest and give it my best shot no matter what the circumstances.

I have a 13 year old niece and it does trouble me that the young people seem to feel so hopeless with so many things. As a recreation director I heard many stories from very young children that made me angry, frustrated and left me feeling extremely guilty. It's hard not to feel responsible for not protecting and sheltering them from all of the information and issues that they really should be kept out of. I realize how crazy the world has gotten. It's hard for me to deal with sometimes and it's not their fault.

Ever the optimist....I'm sure that as attitudes change, here and in the world and if kids are allowed to really be kids again things will improve. I guess time will tell. But for now I make sure to keep the lines of communication open.....no matter what the issue and to be totally honest, even if I am unsure or uncomfortable with it. One thing I have noticed is that kids understand and appreciate honesty more than we know.
Thanks for this great posting that really got me thinking!

beautiful

This is beautiful!~

Awesome, I am glad to hear she is feeling not so sad now. She would make a great writer one day...sounds like she is well on her way of expressing herself.

Ruth, I also enjoyed your comment. Awesome outlook you have. :)

Allie is very talented. This is beautiful and funny for me in a way. I have been having some of those very same thoughts lately, except I wish my parents were still alive.Beautiful work Allie.

This is wonderful, what a thought provoking piece!

what a beauty!....and I have wondered what it would be like to be someone else, but then that someone would be me...and the bad things would still be happening

Wow... she really put a lot of thought and feeling into this.  It was excellent and it made me think about the things that I have wished for in my lifetime.

At times I wish that I had made better choices when I was younger. Never married when I did and then to someone else. However, had I done that my life would be entirely different. I would not have the beautiful daughters that I do, nor would I have my simply wonderful grandchildren. And, in the long run, I would have never met my husband, Ed.

So, truthfully, NO, I would not want to be someone different.

Your granddaughter was wise beyond her years!