It's a feeling that makes me tremble,
It's something beyond description,
I'm living an experience that's nearly a gamble,
So I wish for happiness, but expect deception.
Cruelty isn't always meant to be willful,
But still it's too hurtful to forgive.
And to me, neglecting is even more painful,
Especially when those who take are too arrogant to give.
I sometimes regret having vivid imagination;
As I keep dreaming, yet so little comes true.
I wonder whether those for whom I care deserve my emotion,
Or was it all the 'fantasy' that in my mind I drew?!
I know it might sound selfish when I say,
That if it were up to me the choice to love or hate,
I'd chain my heart and save it from being a prey,
Because I'm done waiting for my soul mate.
It's shameful knowing that no one really cared;
Even by staring they never wanted to see.
Then why did I shake and get scared,
Whenever someone special looked at me?!
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Me too, I hope to find him.
My advice to you Roaa to concentrate in your studies... Our exams begin in 13/5.
Leave your soul mate alone in peace and tend to fall in love with public international law, theory of obligations, french legal termnology, history of egyptian legal and social systems and personal status of Christians and Jews.
I did enjoy your poem and the emotion you poured in to it.
Try relaxing and letting things just happen. Sometimes they are right under our noses or right in front of our eyes. We just don't see. They say the energy you send out is what you get back in return. Try not to send out negative energy.
I hope this helps.
Sending you a hug and very good thoughts.
Thanks Renee...
That being something they seek "outside" of themselves, actually prevents them from finding that which is even greater by far, their own INternal Soul, their relationship to God ... that which would insure them far greater happiness and satisfactions than the outer ... yet blesses them with the ability to find and appreciate their true outer soulmate, which will surely then appear ... hopefully it also self/Self aware ...
To bring together two fractions less than the 1 of a whole, will never equal 2 ... but to bring together two wholes of the opposite sex, will create a sum greater than the simple parts, a SYNERGY ... there is nothing better than that ... and well worth striving for ... found by seeking truth. IMnsHO.
Nice poem though ... :-)
I am so glad that you recognised the importance of my message and showed this interest. Most adults my age are so set in their ways as to completely miss the importance of it ... or to think erroneously that it is too late for them ... it is NEVER too late.
In my not knowing just what part escapes you, I know not what to address first ... so let me just ramble on here and maybe I will hit on the problem area and give a different way of looking at it that is more understandable ... and if that does not work, please feel free to inquire some more ... the "message" itself is truly worth whatever it takes to know about it.
First off it takes having a concept about God as being the very most important consideration for human kind ... not the God of so many religions especially, but a personal experience of God found withIN the self, inside of your own person ... actually that is where God is really experienced by anyone, even those that find God outside of them via their religion ...
But the God found via religion is too often defined by that religion, and that then makes one picture that God in their mind based upon the definitions and dogma of the religion. And most religions, except for their more mystical esoteric offshoots, are very "dualistic", meaning they see things from the perspective of their ego, a perception of the "self", that perception being what most people in the world think about themselves, that of being a "separate" non-connected person in a world of other separate non-connected people, each just a "self" ...
From the ego perception of self, we all live on earth for a lifetime ... if we have any concern for what happens after we die, we may involve ourselves in a religion because most people say that that is a good way to go ... most people would say that it is the only and the best way to go. Religions themselves insist that it is the only way to go in most cases. But the relationships between them and God often continues to be a "divided" one, where God is in heaven above (+) and mankind remains on earth below (-) ... separate (divided)(/) until after death ... (+/-) a "dualistic" relationship now on earth.
It has been my finding, through an actual personal experience, that God is available to everyone when they are ready to receive God's Spirit. It is the Spirit of God that is the third party that bridges the earlier gap or void between Heaven and Earth, and the Spirit that is experienced withIN yourself when it happens to you as it did to me ... because I was never religious, I did not equate that Spirit to religions and feel a need to relate it to their dogma and creed ... so I related it to me as what it most strongly appeared as ... UNconditional Loving acceptance of just as I was into a Cosmic Realm of belonging that included not only the earths totality but beyond into Spiritual realms ... but because I was seeking truth, rather than consciously seeking God at the time, it was "truth" that I found as all of the answers and satisfied longings I had had up to then ... all fulfilled then.
I knew then that the former way of looking at things without Spirit was just the dualistic way of seeking across the voids (/) of separation between differences (opposites)(+/-).
With the relating to Spirit, the void (/) is bridged with Spirit (=) and in place of Duality (+/-) we have Trinity (+=-).
Before I go on here, I must bring all of this into focus as to how it relates to the ego self, the person that was alone prior to finding this Spiritual connection ...
The "normal" (like most people) ego self just goes through life seeking relationships OUTside of self, in the OUTer world, as between male and female ... to ego selves coming together for whatever purpose they both seek, hopefully in cooperation, human love and the synergy of creating a family ... that being considered the highest achievement of human kind by most people ... that is "normality" ... there is nothing wrong with that ... BUT ... there is a better higher way ... the one I alluded to where each of those beings FIRST comes to completely and really truly KNOW themselves, Spiritually.
If that has taken place first, then the real truth of real soul-mates coming together is the greatest thing that can happen, and it probably will, because each person knows their own truth of spiritual relationship and will be most assured by their common Spirits that God is INvolved in "that" relationship ... making it as good as it gets here on earth ... far better than the haphazard "marriages" of most people that do NOT know their own Spirits, let alone the union of them in marriage.
When the ego self ... (lower case s self, the lower self) actually meets their own INternal Spirit, that will be found to be their higher Self (upper case S Self)(their own Soul)(their Spiritual connection to God) ... comes to actually make this connection (bridges the gap) they will know without a doubt that they are Spiritually connected to God and thus Spiritually connected to ALL of creation ... it just does NOT get any better than that ... except when two people, each knowing that first, come together ... that being the TRUE UNION of SOUL MATES ... something very much worth seeking out !!!
If this has not helped and you still seek explanations, please just inquire, there is nothing more important to me now than helping people come to understand this ... Love, j.
And when you least expect it, you've given up and become at peace with the feeling that "it" may never be, Allah says "so be it"...and there it is right in front of you. Sometimes we don't even know it when it's standing right in front of us. Alhamdullilah!
Imagine how long the wait and how well the worth, Insha'Allah, you will find eachother...it's already written. :-)
lots of emotion. i'm done looking too, but you never know. you could find that special someone... 10