by KraZe 4 Wolf
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July 27, 2007

Cancer in the morning?

August 20, 2007 09:26 PM EDT (Updated: August 21, 2007 12:04 AM EDT)
views: 84 | rating: 10/10 (12 votes) | comments: 16
In the morning I will take my beautiful daughter to the  hospital. We will both be scared but we won't speak of it. There will be someone that comes out to talk to us, to explain the dangers of radiation, the side effects and have her sign papers .... Then we will wait......... and wait........
They will have us go into a room that has nuclear hazard warning labels on everything. They will protect themselves with lead vests and gloves... reach into a metal container ... making sure not to allow it to touch them in anyway..keeping it at arms length... I won't be allowed to stand close... and then they will ask her to swallow it.
My heart will feel like it stopped. I will fight back tears so she won't start crying. We will wait for a short time at the hospital then go home. She cannot have anyone within 3 feet of her... can't have her pugs with her or her cats. Her husband will sleep on the couch. She will feel sick, she is already so sick and fragile... they will tell me not to hug her... but I will... just a quick hug... a touch...
Then in a couple of days... the scan... the one that will tell us if the cancer is back. It takes a long time.. then we have to wait for the results... I already feel like my heart has stopped. Like I want to just break down and cry but won't because she needs me now. So tonight I lay down and try to sleep.
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Comments: 16

Ginny H. Aug 20, 2007, 9:29pm EDT
Praying that it isn't back.
KraZe 4 Wolf Aug 20, 2007, 9:30pm EDT
thank you ...
Oh, oh, oh, oh! My dear cousin, I hold my breath for you! I pray for both of you and will wait impatiently for news of the results.

{{{hugs}}} for you.

{{{hugs}}} for her.
KraZe 4 Wolf Aug 20, 2007, 10:51pm EDT
Ina ..Thank you... I feel broken.. I will email you an update...
the old fashion way...
please pray for her...
flit . Aug 21, 2007, 2:36am EDT
oh dear....I am so sorry you - and she - are having to go through this.

Happy thoughts.... many happy thoughts for both of you!
*Carol ~Bronx Southern Belle D. Aug 21, 2007, 10:47am EDT
Hugs, kisses. I know the fear your feeling, but everything will be fine. Medicine has come so far that cancer is no longer the horror it once was. You'll be writing soon about your victory over this. I'm featuring your article on Gatherers Gallery in the hopes that you will get lots of love, comfort and prayers.
Amy B. Aug 21, 2007, 11:48am EDT
Oh, my heart is aching for you right now. You will be in my thoughts and prayers. A neighbor of mine had similar radiation about ten years ago and had to send her children to live with a relative for awhile because they were too young to understand why she couldn't hug them. But she is doing great today, so I pray for the same results for your daughter.
Duckie 1 Aug 21, 2007, 3:34pm EDT
I don't know you but my heart just skipped in sympathy and fear. I will hold you both in my thoughts and prayers. Sending positive energy around you and your daughter.

Send us news when you can.
Duckie, this is my cousin.
Reba W. Aug 21, 2007, 6:45pm EDT
Oh NO!!!! I pray it isn't back! My heart goes out to you and your daughter! What you must be going through....I can't imagine. HUGS
Michelle C. Aug 21, 2007, 7:52pm EDT
Big hugs to you... I don't understand why you can't be close to her in distance and have to stay 3 feet away? that would make me upset!
Teresa L. Aug 21, 2007, 8:25pm EDT
May your daughter be blessed with comfort and healing. May all who love her be blessed with peace.
KraZe 4 Wolf Aug 21, 2007, 9:26pm EDT
Thank you all so much for your support... today has come and gone... as I knew it would ... now we wait for the scan.........

Michelle.. With this type of radiation the person actually admits radation and it can harm people around them... they must be very careful for the first few days... and no children or pets... not around anybody who is pregnant... or immune compromised..
It is different than the radiation used in most cancers.

I will update you all when I have news... until then know how much your support means to me..
Thanks again
Diana Raabe Aug 23, 2007, 4:26pm EDT
Been there, done that; best wishes.
KraZe 4 Wolf Aug 26, 2007, 8:27pm EDT
Briggette ... and everyone else...
Please read my next post... as it updates the radiation and scan results
:)

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