by Rob Appell
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June 9, 2006

The "Lighter" Side Of Being A One-Legged Wonder

May 07, 2008 04:20 AM EDT
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      By now, most of you are aware of my situation in losing my right leg; what I've gone through, am going through and still face ahead.  I've got more progress to report on...in a bit.  Not being able to do much running around...figuratively and literally, I end up with lots of time on my hands.  It gives me time to think, which can be a dangerous thing the way you know my mind works sometimes.  I've used some of that thinking time wisely for a change in figuring out how to do various things now that I'm faced with the challenge I have.  You also know my brain can't stay focused other times and tends to wander and come up with the most obscure stuff. 
      I'm none too pleased in having my leg removed and the are many drawbacks from having it gone, as you can imagine.  In my thinking...and getting ready to go off on a totally different tangant...I realize there's nothing I can do but accept what's happened, deal with it and move on.  It's not a plesant thing to have to come to terms with, but it must happen in order for life to continue...and I think I have.  Alright, now that I've got that out of the way, here come the part where my warped imagination kicks in.  Sure, there are some negatives I have to face just as a matter of reality, but what about some of the positive aspects of what's happened.  You know, it's somewhat bad, but in ways, things aren't as bad as they were before.  Think about it.
      As I mentioned before, I had to change the brand of bar soap I use.  I can't use Lever 2000 to bathe with...because I no longer have all 2000 parts.  What do you think I changed to? Irish Spring...maybe it can help put a little 'spring' back into my step.  I know some of you are dieting and here I go and lose weight in the snap of a finger.  You're using a treadmill and a stationary bike.  They used a hacksaw on me...and a good 10 pounds was gone.  I dropped to 170 overnight...at 6'4.  I also no longer tinkle when I go to the bathroom.  Being somewhat unsteady standing on one foot, the aim tends to be somewhat off and I don't want to constantly have to clean up the floor.  Now, I squat...like a little girlie...to pee.  What do you ladies call it?  Now I sprinkle!
      I save money on laundry...I only have one sock to wash...or I can go further between loads by wearing both from the same pair when I change them.  I also save on having to polish shoes with only the left one needing buffing.  Only five toe nails to clip, too!  What a time saver.  If someone goes to step on my toes, they've got few targets to aim for.  They'd better watch their step.  I might not be able to stomp back on their foot, but I can always hit 'em with one of my crutches.  When I go out walking in the rain, if a puddle is too deep; I only have to worry about getting one foot soaked.
      I'd love to be there to see the look on the face of the guy who has to make my prosthetic leg for me.  It comes complete and will have to have a functioning foot on it...to match my other foot.  I know he's going to end up calling someone to inquire about the mistake made in its measurement.  I take a size 16 EEEEE...not something you just happen to run into everyday.  Get a ruler out and follow along the convertion.  My feet are 13 1/4 inches long and 5 1/2 inches wide. I've got some mighty big feet.  You can only imagine the size footprint I leave.  Big Foot lives!
      On a serious note, your comments filled with hope, love, encouragement and praise have been overwhelming.  Some of you have even said how much of a different I've made in the way you look at things and how you face various obstacles in your way.  I'm just doing what I have to so I can get by...the will to survive and go on the best I can.  I'm not done living yet.  If my misfortune can benefit others and make a difference, then it was worthwhile and I have a message to bring forth and share to help anyone it can. 
      I've continued by daily walks hobbling around the neighborhood on my crutches.  I've learned to try and go earlier in the days; mornings; and I can avoid bigger crowds on the sidewalks and heavier traffic.  I've been trying to get around 10:00...and it's cooler then than in the middle of the afternoon.  I've made it out 28 days in a row now; 4 weeks; nearly a month.  It was scary at first, but my confidence has been boosted daily by doing it again successfully.  I can remember my first trip just across the street to the convenience store taking half an hour to complete.  I've cut that time by one third being down to 20 minutes now.  I've gone from three breaks to rest to just one...on my front veranda when I get back from the store before I tackle going up to the third floor step by step on my butt.  It works and I don't have to worry about my fear of falling down the stairs backwards. 
      I've also stepped things up, so to speak, and sometimes go out for two walks a day; half the time by my choice; the rest of the time because I'm such a ditz and forgot something.  I'm trying to get out twice daily at least three to four times a week.  Last Friday, I even increased it to going out three times...not by choice; being a ditz; a blond moment.  I went to grab some food at the convenience store across the street around 9 AM.  When I got home and checked my mail, i realized I needed to pay my bills for the month.  Up to my place I go and make out the checks and get ready to walk the two blocks up to the mailbox to send them on their way.  That's taken care of and I'm homeward bound.  Wouldn't you know it.  The moment I get back inside my apartment, it dawns on me I need some cash...from the bank on the opposite corner from where I just mailed my bills out.  I take a bit of a break and two hours later; I head back the two blocks to the bank.  By the time I get back home; I'm dragging.  I'm beat and have just about had it.  There's nothing that's going to get me back out a fourth time...unless it's a large vanilla custard at the ice cream shop three blocks up the street!
      I've also started getting a little help here and there.  Some of my insurance problems have been straightened out and I'm at least getting my medications now...after going without them for a month because nobody wanted to pay.  I can also reschedule the appointments I missed with three doctors; my general practioner, the vascular surgeon and the prosthetic specialist.  I need to be fitted for a hearing aid I was approved for, too.  An agency has found a volunteer; an elderly, retired person; who will take me grocery shopping, wheel the cart for me AND carry the bags upstairs for me.  I can put them away once they're up to my top floor loft.  They're still searching for someone to help with a couple other household chores and rides to wherever I need to go.  A second agency has also contacted me about transportation.  On top of that, I've discovered a co-op where I can buy $65 worth of top-quality food for $30.  It's taken awhile, and I've fended for myself, but things are gradually, slowly, falling into place.  I've also had an acquaintance from back home come up a couple of times and he's taken out four weeks worth of trash and he removed the tension bar that closes my apartment door through air pressure...so it slams on me.  I don't have to worry about being knocked azz over teacup now!
      I have discovered I need to do a bit of on line shopping.  I found about a site where donated items are auctioned off and I've seen a few things I just have to have from there.  I also need to find a pair of gloves to wear when I'm out walking...batting gloves, golf gloves, bicycle gloves.  Those crutches are starting to ruin my hands.  They were always so nice and smooth showing I didn't do manual labor for a living.  I used my brain and my talents.  Now, you'd think I was swinging a sledgehammer all day.  I've got calluses!  What's up with that?  And they're peeling...on my lower palms, on my upper palms under my fingers, on my fingers.  The only finger that's not affected is the one that's missing.  The middle finger on that hand is getting an extra workout compensating for it's neighbor being gone.  I still haven't noticed all the muscles everyone's told me I'd be developing; just in my left calf.  The rest of me is still as scrawny as ever, but this puny body is starting to get some stamina.  It's going to keep going, too.  I have nowhere to go but up and I ain't gonna stop 'til I get to the top! 
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Comments: 120

Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. May 7, 2008, 4:40am EDT
You are beautiful! I must admit that you had me chuckling there for a few moments and sure hope you don't mind but you do have a desirable way of looking at things. If only we could all have this positive outlook on life. As I have said to you before, YOU inspire me. I haven't even a percentage of your problems and yet I have to think of "poor, poor pitiful me" sometimes. What a shame I must admit.

With your positive outlook and attitude anything is possible and I have faith in you that you will indeed accomplish anything that your mind sets up to do.

I am happy that things are falling into place with your insurance, help in getting your groceries, transportation and the like. Before I had finished reading this I had already thought to tell you that there are organizations that help physically handicapped or challenged folks with running around doing errands and doing chores for one around the house. You should inquire about someone coming to help you do some housecleaning and possibly even cooking you a meal or two. I know they provide this type of help here in Dallas so I'm sure they offer it there in Rochester too if one inquires and needs the assistance.

All I can say about YOU is that I am so very proud to have you as my friend as you continue to inspire ME!

God bless you and keep you in his light and grace. ;)
Heidianna "Coriander" T. May 7, 2008, 4:47am EDT
Your sense of humor hasn't lost anything! :) I'm so glad that you're getting stronger - mentally and physically. You're inspirational. You really are!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 5:44am EDT
Esther - Such a sweet, sweet gal. I'm trying to keep the help to a minimum and retain as much independence as i can...devising my own way of doing things...unconventional sometimes, but they work. I can do all my housecleaning; dishes, vacuum, toilet and sink, and it's funnier than hell seeing me sweep and mop the bathroom and kitchen where there's no carpet...like a little, old lady with my walker and the broom or mop tucked under my arm in short, little strokes. I cook and bake, so no problem there. Just a couple things I can't do involving heavy, bulky lifting...laundry and trash. I've got everything else under control. I've got to do as much as possible for myself because I'm alone, which is probably the way I'll always be. And I'm hoping I'm not always going to be in the shape I'm in physically. Once I get a prosthetic, I can go back to doing things the regular way for the most part. You've just got to get it in your mind you have to do things because they have to be done...and nobody else is going to do them for you...so you do them yourself and get them done! Just that simple, baby! Glad you're doing better, too...Good to have you back, you old molester...LOL!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 5:46am EDT
Cori - You've got to keep your sense of humor. Laughter really IS the best medicine. And if I'm not laughing at myself; I'm going to have to laugh at you...LOL! Yes, I'm getting strong physically and mentally...I'm especially mental as you can tell by some of my writings.
Esther IS Flesh and Blood S. May 7, 2008, 5:47am EDT
Love you Rob!!
LEЯA © Politcally Incorrect M. May 7, 2008, 5:53am EDT
I honestly didn't know your situation, Rob.
I totally love your attitude.
Wanda H. May 7, 2008, 5:59am EDT
You may have lost a leg but somehow you seem to have a leg up on the rest of us in gumption! Thank goodness you stopped using that 2000 soap, it will dry all your parts! Irish Spring is just as bad. You need Dove or something like it, nice softness and getting clean too. ;o)

Seriously I am very glad that you are doing so well, I really felt for you when I read your description of your first venture out by yourself. You are really making progress. I wish I was doing as well. Maybe I will have to have Bill stop doing so much for me so I can make more progress. I still have both legs but a very weak back from surgery.
sheila ~the hapless housewife~ j. May 7, 2008, 6:09am EDT
Sounds like everythings starting to come together for you. I'm glad you'll be able to save some money by not having to buy all your groceries at the convenience store!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 6:10am EDT
Esther - Love ta back, mama!

Lera - I've always had a 'tude. I just tweeked it a little and did some fine tuning.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 6:15am EDT
Wanda - I don't have a leg up on anyone. I've got a nub up on you...LOL! Oh, and dear no...some parts don't need to be dry! I usually use Zest, but Irish Spring was on sale - six bars for $1.98. If you want something bad enough, you'll figure out a way to get it. If you have Bill stopping doing some things, your only choice will to be if you do it. Whatever it is, it will eventually get on you enough you'll just end up doing it, so why not start making your mind up you WILL do it...as soon as you're done relaxing, eating bon bons and watching TV.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 6:17am EDT
Sheila - You and me both! Some things are reasonable priced, but other things are outrageous, not to mention such a small selection...like one choice. Take it or leave it...and you pay the price that's marked. I liked grocery shopping already, but I really need a life getting excited for my next trip...LOL!
Danielle P. May 7, 2008, 6:39am EDT
Attitude is everything and I think all those prayers worked a bit. I am so amazed by your wonderful attitude and you are definitely an inspiration.
Karolyn Q. May 7, 2008, 7:02am EDT
It is great that you have such a postive attitude. You had my laughing at some parts. You really are an inspiration,
I am glad to that the insurance problems are working out for you. Good thing you found the food coop too.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 7:14am EDT
Danielle - Yah, I think He got tired of laughing at me and finally gave in...too much pressure from down below. Whatever it is; it seems to be working.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 7:15am EDT
Karolyn - Gotta keep laughing. If I stop; I'll cry. I've done enough of that.
Paula T. May 7, 2008, 7:27am EDT
Rob, are you aware of Angel Food Ministries, a food bank that does not require you be of any faith nor any income cap? They offer wonderful purchase packages on food and there are several locations in Rochester. ROCHESTER
Great Commissions, In His Service, Min. (585) 234-0647
(585) 732-1648
Victory Baptist Church (585) 334-8524
Faith Temple (585) 473-1680
Rochester Christian Church (585) 271-1172
Grace Covenant Church (585) 889-2130
Hope Lutheran Church (585) 254-6999
(585) 254-6999
St. John's Home (585) 760-1257

They can really help with food costs! Thanks for your kindnesses, and I love your articles. I am getting ready to catch my flight to see my son, but I will be back on Gather on Monday. Take care, dear friend!
penni d. May 7, 2008, 7:32am EDT
rob, you are SO loved! Didn't I tell you about the feeling of help on the way? YAY!
My friend Floyd has one leg..he made some soft covers for the tops of his crutches and made up a few pair for the local stores, but they didn't take off.Too bad, cause it was a great idea! then we all wanted to be the one who drew his name for christmas, as three pair of socks was like giving him 6 pair.....can you work up a pully from a window for the daily trash? *hug*
Jennifer aka Jenn B. May 7, 2008, 7:33am EDT
Good Morning Rob, I'm new to Gather and I don't know what happened...I saw the big foot image and thought it was interesting and came to check it out. Esther has already said what I felt.....
You seem to be taking it in stride and doing what you have to do So I also Ditto what Danielle said.................
I will leave you with one of the many word of wisdom that has guided my life..."Ask and ye shall receive"...
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 7:48am EDT
Paula - I've heard of Angel Food and have checked out some of their packages on line. There are some good bargains. Have a safe flight and swat him for me and telling I said snap out of it...or he'll have me for summer school...LOL!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 7:50am EDT
Penni - There's a fire escape out the kitchen window...and I can't climb out the window to set up anything. Plus, that's where the air conditioner will go when I can find someone to put it in...not something I can move as it is. I'll 'con' someone into taking it down eventually.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 7:52am EDT
Jennifer - Ask and shall receive??? Alrighty then...how about a couple dozen cookies! I'll be waiting to receive them. Send them USPS and they'll get to my mailbox. I checked my menu and I can have cookies. I just can't eat them all at once. So I'll leave one for later.
Melinda ~choosing happiness~ S. May 7, 2008, 8:13am EDT
You are an amazing man!
Audrey F. May 7, 2008, 9:26am EDT
Rob, Thanks for brightening my morning with your upbeat article. That's quite an accomplishment, going out 28 days in a row! I think the doctor creating your prosthesis is going to have quite a lot of fun with you (and your big feet! :) ). I'm glad you are doing so well! As others have said, you are definitely an inspiration and an amazing man! Love you lots!
Elaine A. May 7, 2008, 9:27am EDT
What a inspring article you wrote Rob, your sense of humor is wonderful.
If you keep your attitude as is - you will beat all life throws at you.
Deb J. May 7, 2008, 9:28am EDT
You hang in there Rob!! I agree with Lindy!!
JoAnne D. May 7, 2008, 9:28am EDT
I know what you mean about the thinking, it could be dangerous, I am glad that you are up and around though. You know it's hard to keep a good person down. Take care.
Kellie S. May 7, 2008, 9:32am EDT
Once again you inspire me. Wish I could do the same for you. If I lived closer I'd help you all I could; as it is all I can do is pray for you and help you generate points. :)

I thought of you Monday when I had lunch with my friend who makes prosthetics. He loves what he does so much... and I wish the two of you could get together.
Robyn F. May 7, 2008, 9:49am EDT
Hey Rob, i noticed when i was on crutches, my triceps were awesome!!!!! At least you are finding humor.......
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 9:57am EDT
Melinda, Lindy and Deb - Thanks all three of you! I'm quite unique in my own right.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 9:59am EDT
Elaine - I hope life doesn't hit me any curve balls. I was never too good at fielding in baseball. I was better sitting in the press box announcing the games. It might not be a grand slam, but I'm sure out to hit a home run.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:03am EDT
Audrey - That first day when I fell trying to go out and fell at the front door...I would have told you I could never do this. After a couple days, I realized I not only could; I had to. I had no choice. Like the way you've progressed in just a year...out and about like it's nobody's business, karate, a visit from mom and a return back to the homeland coming up. Lots has already change for you for the better, lady...even that beam on your face shows how happy you've made yourself. Nobody did that but you! Loads of love right back atcha.
Mary Ann S. May 7, 2008, 10:04am EDT
Beautiful article. Thanks.
flit . May 7, 2008, 10:04am EDT
I'm glad you're finding ways to manage... and hope that you will continue to share your experiences with us...even if, sometimes, you find it harder to remain so positive and upbeat.

We love that you are so positive and upbeat... but we don't require it, ok?
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:05am EDT
JoAnne - It sure is tough to keep me down. I kick and scream and say naughty words and I'm only to get up anyway and then there's going to be hell to pay...so you might as well just let me up so I can do things my way because I'm going to anyhow.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:07am EDT
Kellie - Give your friend my card...LOL! I don't know where the specialists get their prosthetics from, but once I get measurements, I wouldn't mind free samples or test driving a new model. He can come here, take me out to lunch and tell me all about it.
Chris E. May 7, 2008, 10:08am EDT
Rob I am happy to see that you still have a positive attitude and that you are able to make light of this yourself. You have taken what happend to you so well. It takes a great person to do that!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:08am EDT
Robyn - Great...huge triceps. I can get my azz kicked by a girl. Maybe I should get one of those curved metal legs...so I can run.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:09am EDT
Mary Ann - Thanks...glad you enjoyed it.
penni d. May 7, 2008, 10:09am EDT
i'd like to meet the fella that made that BIG foot,rob, cause i heard...um...i heard, that the bigger the foot......((((Tee hee)))
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:11am EDT
Flit - Alright, well %$##* and ^@#!! and we can't forget **&%$. That should just about cover it for those times I feel frustrated and want to play Whack-A-Mole with my crutches to people in my way. progress in the making...clear a path.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:13am EDT
Chris - And I'll have you all promise not to let out any of my deep, dark secrets I'm sharing with you. I don't people to start thinking I'm an okay kind of guy.
Kimberly Ripley May 7, 2008, 10:13am EDT
Your attitude and sense of humor are beyond inspiring. They make me feel like I don't have the right to complain about anyhthing at all. I'm so happy to hear of the number of outings you've taken, as I believe they help keep your mind healthy, and we all know about the healthy body/healthy mind link. I hope you're journaling about all of this, as it would make for excellent reading down the road. Many, many good wishes of abundant blessings to you!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:14am EDT
Penni - You're right. The bigger the foot, the bigger the shoe that goes over that prosthetic foot. I have something else quite large...and hard and sticks out. My nose!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 10:16am EDT
Kimberly - I've got it all right here in my articles posted on Gather. I think I can transfer them to My Documents and keep them. Healthy body/healthy mind. What about twisted body/twisted mind? I think that better describes me...LOL!
☃ Aunt Shanny May 7, 2008, 10:33am EDT
OMG, Rob, you are just crazy. And an inspiration.
John Philipp May 7, 2008, 10:46am EDT
Rob, love your attitude and your humor.

Next time your funny bone itches, post whatever you write to Gather Essentials: Writing for Humor Monday.

Thanks
Dawn S. May 7, 2008, 10:59am EDT
Hi Rob,
Crutches are great tripping people that annoy you too! I Love your sense of humor, mine is a bit warped as well and influenced by my best friend Missy C.
We've been best friends for 27 years and she happens to be an amputee since the age of 2. I've had her most of my life as an example of how to live with physical problems. Knowing her and experiencing life with her somehow made it easier for me to accept and adapt when I became challenged myself.
She is such a joyful, funny person. We have had electric shopping cart races (and yes rubbing is racing!) crutch and cane sword fights and she laughed herself silly when I slapped her hard on the leg for something shocking she said and hurt myself because I hit the artificial one!
I'm so glad you are doing well and I can't wait to see how much independence you regain when you get that leg.
BTW, my favorite upside to using a wheelchair when I am out: The rides at Disney World and most amusement parks are accessible only through the exit door. NO waiting in those lines!
Oh yeah and reserved seats at general admission events!
Laurun M. May 7, 2008, 11:29am EDT
Rob, I can see you certainly didn't lose you sarcastic sense of humor. Great article. Keep your spirits up and remember you can always email me.
Ruth Luce May 7, 2008, 11:48am EDT

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At first found your humour a bit sardonic, then very relieved to see it's just Rob as only he can be!! Most everything seems to really be falling into place I am so very glad to hear, the mama in me has settled a bit, and won't give you as much time in my head worrying about it all. The best attitude in you for sure Rob, and inspiring you are! One thing the mama could do, and wouldn't be suffocating, lol, humour me, if you really do like cookies, email me your snail, mama will get some there without fail, repayment for helping me put my "poor me's" in check and get back to my original philosophy:

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Continued well wishes and much love to you!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 11:55am EDT
Shan - You know a whacko when you see one! I recognize them, too.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 11:56am EDT
John - Thanks for the invite. You KNOW there WILL be something else in the future. Stay tuned......
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 12:00pm EDT
Dawn - You go, girl. Get yours! I like the idea of amusement parks and special seating...LOL! Out of my way. Don't make me take my leg off and hit you with it. And you're a mommy on top of everything. I've just got myself to look after and that's a chore. I'm impatient and don't like waiting and want to do everything now. In the meantime, I do what I've got to do...and keeping doing it. Someone has to and if it's not me; it's not going to get done.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 12:02pm EDT
Laurun - You know I've 'had your number' for awhile now, lady. I didn't lose the humor...just fine tuned it. I wasn't the only one in stitches at the hospital. I'd had nurses and aides stop in the check on me even when I wasn't on their patient list. I got lots of practice in.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 12:07pm EDT
Ruth - COOKIES!!! *Does the nyah-nyah dance and sings* I'm gettin' cookies...I'm gettin' cookies...and you can't have any! LOL! A cookie...a cookie...my walker for a cookie. You have to live every second for what it's worth because when the final one comes; that's it folks. Just my lucky, I'd drop dead sitting on the toilet. Great way to find me...but typical. There are those who say i should spend more time on the throne...since I'm so full of it to begin with.
Elsie Duggan May 7, 2008, 12:19pm EDT
I think all the lady nurses knew what they were doing when they checked you out, even if you weren't their patient, hey a cute guy, lol, Keep it up Rob, I knew you could do it and you are proving it to yourself too. You know I pray for you and I love you, Elsie, and keep that sense or humor coming, everyone loves it.
☃ Aunt Shanny May 7, 2008, 12:26pm EDT
(Pssst, Ruth? We need to talk)
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 12:28pm EDT
You just get your nose right out of it, Miss Shannon Wendt Buttinsky. There will be no fraternizing with the bakers. They're my friends.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 12:30pm EDT
Elsie - I know I have to stay on the straight and narrow. You've already threatened to drive up and kick my butt up over my head. You just want me well enough to play Naked twister with you again. This time, though, I can just take my leg off and drop on when they say right foot...blue.
Ruth Luce May 7, 2008, 12:38pm EDT
You made me giggle and laugh Rob, most valuable that!! More for you, but don't tell me, I'm slow but do catch on, they must be sweetened only with applesauce or aspartame, right? Not only the mama, but a retired nurse you know!! That's it right Shannon?! He shall have Cookies!!


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Dawn S. May 7, 2008, 12:42pm EDT
"Don't make me take my leg off and hit you with it."
ROTFLMAO, that is one of Missy's favorite things to say. She will kill me for saying this but she earned the nickname "Mighty Missy" because she is so strong and fiesty. Plus she is only 4'9" but she is quite a presence!
Mine is "don't make me run your a** over!"
Janet H. May 7, 2008, 12:59pm EDT
Awhile back, I saw a company online where you can get just one shoe instead of a pair if you only have one leg. Don't know if its cheaper though. My son takes a size 15 shoe and I thought that was big but I see you have him beat. Years ago, when I was housebound, I used to order groceries from Net Grocer online. They delivered the food right to my front porch. It was more expensive though than going to a regular grocery store. They even had liquid milk that you can keep on your cupboard shelf until after it's opened and it even tasted good too. Some of our local grocery stores will deliver groceries free to the disabled. You just call them up and give them the list of what you want and they assemble your order and deliver it and collect the money for it.
William Dotani May 7, 2008, 1:45pm EDT
Letting your mind wander helps you to ponder.
Jean, just the teensiest bit odd, F. May 7, 2008, 1:56pm EDT
You GO, Rob!! You ARE helping the people who read what you have to say about changing your attitudes and the way you look at things! And THAT, my friend, is a noble, NOBLE cause! Most of the time people don't SEE the really important things because they are caught up in a merry-go-round of trivial, niggly CRAP that, in the greater scheme of things, mean NOTHING... YOU have been given (not by your choice, of course) this "opportunity" to be one of the few among us with insight into the things in life that really COUNT and I (and I'm CERTAIN that I'm not alone in this) just admire the HELL out of you.
Mary McCartt May 7, 2008, 2:00pm EDT
I am so happy that things are starting to work out for you, Rob! Your spirit is shining through. It may seems strange, but your losing a leg has given others a chance to give of themselves and given you a glimpse of the truly brave and good man you are.
Keep us informed.
Amy C. May 7, 2008, 3:06pm EDT
Ok the lever thing had me going! You find humor in so many things! I know it must be hard adjusting but it seems you are doing great and I am glad. I wish you all the best in your recovery.
Sue * May 7, 2008, 3:13pm EDT
I've never used the term "sprinkle" in my life!

I will just continue to say that somehow, this experience has been good for you. You are doing more than you ever did when you had both legs...it has forced you to get out and get busy, and I hate it that you had to go through this...but, I'm so glad to see you becoming part of the world again. I'm sure there are many here that you are helping...and I'm proud of you for being so open about your journey!
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 3:56pm EDT
Karen - There were times I felt like getting drunk and being whiny, but the liquor store is too far up the street for me to walk on crutches yet.

Ruth - I actually can have some sugar and carbs. I just have to watch my intake and eat in moderation. Large cookies - 2, medium cookies - 3, small cookies - 5 or 6< I can have cake, pie, ice cream...just not a lot at one sitting if it contains real sugar. If it's sugar free or contains artificial sweeteners, I can eat as much of it as I want.

Dawn - Mine should be, "Get the 'eff' out of my way!"
Nana to Seven Cutiepies May 7, 2008, 3:59pm EDT
I'm certainly glad your wit is still in tact Rob, you brighten my day! Looks like they kicked you in the butt with your bad leg after removing it. Life does go on and in your case for the better. Who knew all those helpers were ready to give you a hand, hell of a way to find out about them though, but the main thing is that you have. Take care my friend and keep sharing your wonderful spirit and wit.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 4:04pm EDT
Janet - I've seen sites that sell single shoes, but I hope to have a prosthetic leg by later this year, so I'm going to need a full pair. I don't want to pay higher prices ordering groceries on line. I need them brought to the third floor...and none of the grocery stores around here deliver. They don't even have the motorized wheelchair carts.

Jessica - I've been told I'm a few chips shy of being a bagful of chips, but I've never been told I need a couple bags of chips...or that I'm all that and a bag of chips. I'm thin as it is and losing the leg cut back on my weight even moreso. I don't mind being too skinny after being so heavy for so many years.

William - Is that like: Here I sit, broken-hearted. came to sh*t, but only farted."
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 4:09pm EDT
Jean - I am going...not too far and not too fast...but I am going! And if I'm so admired; where's my mirror so I can admire myself, too. What? Mine broke the first time I looked in it?

Mary - You can count on keeping informed. Rob the Brave is here to save the day. Oh, right...that was Mighty Mouse who is supposed to save the day.

Chris and Amy...or is that Chris...or is it Amy - Yes, it's hard adjusting. Have pity on me. Now where that Big Mac you promised. I want junk food with my cookies. I haven't had any Mikecy D's in about three years now...and I've got a craving.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 4:13pm EDT
Sue - If you don't sprinkle, what do you do when you're sitting there??? Don't tell me you just pee. How boring! But at least you're proud of me. I'm kind of a little proud of myself, too. Scott says he is, but the whole thing is still freaking him out. He can't believe how much I've been able to accomplish on my own with him being around and helping me. When your best friend is having a hard time dealing with you problems and you can't rely on him for assistance, you're the only one you can rely on, so you have to do it. I'm hoping he comes around soon and doesn't let it keep bothering him.
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 4:22pm EDT
Nana - So that's what happened...they kicked me with my own leg. And they would even let be keep it and bring it home...in a really big jar. I told them they had to give me a new one to replace the one they kept.
Cheryl W. May 7, 2008, 4:22pm EDT
Rob, you had me laughing and crying in this article. You are a true inspiration because you are forging ahead with your life, despite your challenges. What a lesson this is for those of us who love to sit around and complain about what we don't have. And after reading this, I'm definitely going to be more positive about my daily walks. I should feel so blessed that I CAN go walk without a care in the world. Heck, after reading your article, I feel like going for a run....:) Thanks for a great article and for letting us know how you're doing. You truly are an inspiration. Keep writing!
Cheryl W. May 7, 2008, 4:23pm EDT
OH...speaking of "sprinking"..lol...I have a plaque on my bathroom wall that says "If you sprinkle when you tinkle, please be neat and wipe the seat."..lol Wisdom of the ages.....:)
Rob Appell May 7, 2008, 4:36pm EDT
Cheryl - For those who like to sit around and complain, we should all get together out on my balcony for a little party some day and have us a good, old fashioned 'Bitch Fest'...let it all hang out and get it off our chests. Isn't it amazing how we take such a simple thing as walking for granted...until our ability to do so is taken away...and we still don't let that stop us from doing something we've basically been doing all our life. Now, do you sprinkle...or do you tinkle...or do you pee...or something else?
Cristina S. May 7, 2008, 5:37pm EDT
Rob, you are going to conquer every problem with your great attitude! Way to go - again!!
Risa G. May 7, 2008, 6:10pm EDT
Rob, I think attitude is the most important thing when things go wrong with the human body. My MIL got through cancer because she had an upbeat attitude and I think that is one of the most important things. You sound like you are doing very well mentally. You are making lemonade since you were given lemons!

You are going to conquer this problem because you see things correctly. Yes, it stinks that you had a leg removed BUT you can see the humor in your situation, which is a wonderful thing.

Good luck getting used to it all. I've been handicapped in the past (altho' it was not something removed but something braced) and know how it makes you feel at first. With good people around you, and a good attitude, you will be alright.

Thanks for this wonderful article. I'm glad to see how you are doing.
t b. May 7, 2008, 6:22pm EDT
Excellent article Rob!
I am glad things are looking up for you.
Take care.....t
CyberGwen ! May 7, 2008, 6:32pm EDT
You have the best damn sense of humor! I just don't know what to say, I can't compete with the master of sarcasm!
Sue * May 7, 2008, 6:33pm EDT
I don't understand Scott's reaction exactly, but this is one of those times where his age may have something to do with it. As I mentioned once before on one of your articles...the news tends to leave a person a bit speechless, and in person I'm sure it is even harder. He is still young enough to feel as if nothing bad can happen, and then he not only could have lost his best friend, his friend is left with a life altering disability. I think he will eventually come around and see that actually, you are going to be able to do all the things you could before...just differently. Well, hopscotch might be harder...but, you can do it. I can't wait to see what you can accomplish when you "get your leg" although, I think there will be a real transition period with that too.
Laura H. May 7, 2008, 8:05pm EDT
Alway positive, Rob. Thinking positive is key to recovery time and so is walking, so I learned after having body parts removed in March, but I didn't go as drastic, I only had a total hysterectomy.

Sorry for your loss and it's great to have you back!
Karen M. May 7, 2008, 8:22pm EDT
Rob -

I teach Special Needs Kids and as you can imagine, they have their down days about being different. I would love to share pieces of your story with them, but would never do it without your permission. You can think about it and let me know. I think it would do them wonders to hear excerpts of some of your articles....certainly, I would not use a name and would edit out anything....let's say......questionable.....LOL.....I have learned a lot from you....let me know if you mind? Take care!
Lori Cee May 7, 2008, 8:43pm EDT
youre one sick SOB! and i luv every inch of you!












(and dont go there....)
every inch?

You are one kinky hussy!
Elizabeth Madrigal May 7, 2008, 8:55pm EDT
I'm sure you have dark days sometimes, but I must admit, we are all impressed with your outlook. During my most trying medical experiences (giving childbirth and a grisly cancer treatment and regimen), I learned that humor was the best antidote to dealing with my pain and loss.

Certainly friends will comment on your 'positive' attitude, but they should know it is less for your benefit than for theirs. After all, it is your intimates and caregivers who will be the recipients of your good humor.

Ron, I think you know the worst is over. Now the best starts. Bless you, my friend.
☃ Aunt Shanny May 7, 2008, 9:09pm EDT
You just get your nose right out of it, Miss Shannon Wendt Buttinsky. "

Okay, Uni-Pod.
Lori Cee May 7, 2008, 9:19pm EDT
"Okay, Uni-Pod."

omg.
Janie E. May 8, 2008, 12:05am EDT
Rob, I love your positivity and determination!!! I, also, love your sense of humor.

There isn't anything you can't do, if you try. I'm very impressed by your determination to get your life back to some normalacy. I'm, also, very happy that you're receiving help from some very good and kind people.

If you ever get down in the dumps(don't mean that, literally, k) you know where to come to get your spirits lifted. We will be glad to cheer you, anytime!! God bless you, Rob!!!!
Dawn S. May 8, 2008, 9:38am EDT
Amen to that one Rob, it happens with chairs too.
Lesli B. May 8, 2008, 10:17am EDT
Rob, you're always so positive. I too have learned a lot from you. Keep going forward and never look back.

If you need any advice about hearing aids let me know. I've been a life long user. They can be difficult to get used to, but they make a heck of a difference!

Stay you, and stay positive.