I was lost in thought, lost in today,
Not realizing how far I'd lost my way.
Days go fast...feels like they never end.
Inside I feel like I have no friends.
People surround me and smile my way.
Never at a loss for what to say.
Deep down...I walk like a robot at best.
There are some hurts you just don't confess.
That private place I go to retreat
Is where I hide, spend my time to weep.
If you think here happiness abounds,
I have become like a circus clown.
Feels like part of me has up and died
All that is left for me is to cry
There is no happily ever after
Death steps in taking away the laughter.
Some go on, despite the shovel sounds
Their loved one sleeps alone in the ground.
It is like when out in Tv land
A special report breaks in and
Tells us of some terrible thing
Then back to the show where people sing.
How can they sing, comes to my mind
They didn't know, things were fine, taping time.
Life goes on, like others haven't a clue
"Till they walk a mile in another's shoes.
The pain, hearing of tragedy there
Life goes on, like others just don't care.
Someday, the pain will lessen and then
Peace will be able to walk right in.
Someone reminds me, the one I've lost,
Would be sad I chose to pay this cost.
Meanwhile, I have made the choice to pray.
Only God can take this pain away.
Psalm 55:22 Cast your burden upon the Lord. He will sustain you; he will never allow the righteous to be shaken.
I wrote this June 23,1999
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Comments: 14
Thanks Carol, life does go on!
Thanks Angela!
Thanks for sharing.
Thanks Elizabeth! I also wrote an article on grief you may want to read, it's called Grief and shouldn't be too far back in my many pages of articles.
Thanks Esther! You bring a smile to my face, thank you my dear friend!
Thanks Sheila, it feels that way but that is the way life is, people die and new people are born..at the same time! In my family my Aunt was born the day her father's mother died. He came home with white hair from the shock.The day her father died her granddaughter gave birth. I visited her home as it was my Grandfather too that died and it was an interesting time, sorrow and joy!
Thanks Alison! Many times when people I love have died it has been a shock. With my parents and my great aunt who have died since 2003, I knew for a long time that they were ill and it was a matter of time. My great aunt died 4 days before my Dad and she knew I was taking care of him but I wish I could have known and gone to see her one last time. But we don't get to know, do we? I am at peace, I know I did all I could to take care of my parents and I know they are no longer suffering.
I was once in a restaurant with my family and a man was eating alone and looked very very sad. I wrote him a note on my paper place mat. I told him that I was despondent many years ago and tried to take my own life. I told him if he looked over at my table he would see the husband and children I now have. I told him that there is always hope and that life can change. We never know what lies ahead.
I sent it over with my teenage son. After he read it tears welled in his eyes and he came over and shook my hand and left. Not a word was spoken and I'll never know what he was going through. I hope I helped!