I'm not really up for a chat, as I'm about to go back to bed. I wanted to wish you a merry Christmas though, even though I know it must be rough this year.
just feeling lonely because my husband is not here this year... feeling a little anxious with my anxiety disorder, too... just not the best christmas this year, i guess....
did your grandkids have a good christmas? did santa bring them some good gifts?
Teh kids always have a good time. I know what it's like not to have a husband when you're younger. My husband was military and gone for a year a time twice
yeah... i'm just trying to look forward to next year and counting the blessings i do have now. :) don't you love those old movies??! they just make me happy.
I'm very big into using the power of our minds, using meditation, affirmations, and just learning to feel things the way we want them to be. It takes a bit of practice but I find it works.
no, my family is 2 hours south... i was there yesterday with them, but chose to come home because my anxiety was just getting the better of me... i feel safest here. ya know?
yes, most of the time i try to use cognitive therapy... reversing my self talk... you know, instead of saying "oh no! something bad is going to happen!" you say to yourself, "if something bad does happen, you will be okay!"
Although she did take her two kids and go up to another one of my daughter's for the holiday. I talked to her earlier and she's anxious to get home where she feels comfortable. I"m sure you know what that is.
I hope your daughter has a good time and she doesn't feel too anxious. I do know exactly what it's like... It's almost as if you don't want other people to notice your anxiety and feel like they have to single you out or worry about you or something...
Jessica, I just wrote an article about depression etc., sorry I can't remember if you commented or not. It is getting to be that time when my brain starts shutting down.
i do believe that! i believe that when we are born, we chose our life... we have lessons we have to learn during this life... and sometimes it takes a few lives to learn all of those lessons...
you did, chana? i don't think i've seen that yet... i don't think i'm exactly depressed... just struggling with my anxiety disorder this time of year... but extreme anxiety/panic attacks can lead to depression sometimes
Chana! That was a great article! You said some of the things that I try to say or that I think without writing down... It's hard to explain anxiety/panic/depression to those who have not experienced it. By the way, has your kitty come home?
No Jessica, I have gotten to the point where I don't think I will see her again. She will be the fifth one we have lost this year. Two from old age, one during childbirth and the other we have no idea what happened to him. He just died. hubby was really overcome over losing him.
Oh my- making a connection like that always unnerves me a bit--I've done past life readings for people a long time ago and always got blown away by the connections. Haven't done any in a long, long time.
whenever i'm feeling really down, i always wish that i could call my memaw... she grew up really poor in west virginia... you know that song "coal miner's daughter?" that pretty much describes her life... she was such a big influence in my life. (my mom's mother)
You can talk to her you know. One of my son't died two years ago and I talk to him and it gives me peace--I don't pretend he is there but I like to think maybe he hears me.
Actually Mary you are reminding me of the very first article I wrote on Gather. I have a thing for Scarlett O'Hara. Tough and beautiful. Maybe I was like that if I had past lives.
Thanks Jessica, yes they are my babies. Hubby saw his son yesterday, I was hoping they would have a visit today. He is in the marines. Hubby came home and said You know what, he's a man. I said yes he has been for awhile, he's 25. And Hubby said No, now he is really a man.. His son was in full dress uniform. I swear I saw some tears in his eyes.
awww, chana! that is so great that he got to see his son! they DO look impressive in those full dress uniforms, don't they? my sister's husband is a marine.
Probably, Margaret and Scarlet. When I was writing my novel, I couldn't seem to let it end and one of my daughters said it was because I identified with the main character and since he was getting ready to leave this lifetime, I didn't want to let go.
Howdy, folks! Just stopping by and found this fascinating.
Every Christmas my son and I go to my parents' for 'the day' and then come home in the afternoon to rest, relax and otherwise veg out....my sister and her family are here this year and I simply couldn't stay there all day and visit. I needed some space and solitude. So we came home, I took a nap and my son just left to go back over there. I just can't face it. My food addiction/eating disorder has kicked into high gear and my body is yelling at me because of it. I can't get 'things' back under control in the middle of so much going on. My mother criticized my eating habits at the dinner table the other day--completely unprovoked, it came out of the blue--and I just can't shake off the effects of being humiliated that way. It's been progressively harder to be in the same room with her.
Just so sad....that she has an eating disorder for which she won't seek any kind of treatment and that I am letting her illness so strongly affect my efforts to deal with mine.
I think I just 'hijacked' your chat...but then again, maybe not. We're all at home alone on Christmas night for various reasons...does anyone have any experience in dealing with such family dysfunction?
Oh, Linda! How callous of her to make such a comment!!! Grrrr! Some people just have no couth! I know how you feel not being able to face people at a time like this, though... I'm kind of having the same issues with anxiety right now... just having panic attacks and anxiety and wanting to be alone rather than have people fuss over me when they really don't understand...
Linda, I"m an older woman, raised six kids, and I'm going to tell you, if your mother does that to you, stay away from her. She has no right to cause you so much pain.
wow, mary! i'm going to have to read it now! i've always had ideas for books and have wanted to do some writing of my own, but i never know where to start.
Linda, maybe once the holidays are over, you could mention how hurt you were by your mother's comment to her..... some people are just so clueless they don't know how bad words can hurt sometimes
Two of my daughter's married Jewish men and I love them, the sons in law as much as the Chatholic ones. People absolutely drive me bananas with their prejudices.
I actually feel sorry for him Jessica. It is so sad to hate. It's bad for your spiritually, emotionally and physically plus you miss some great things in life.
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did your grandkids have a good christmas? did santa bring them some good gifts?
Do you ever wonder if it could be a past life thing? I dont believe or not believe in past lives but boy it sure explains a lot of stuff.
mary... that is just so strange that west virginia and coal mining came up!
Yes I had a wonderful Christmas
Every Christmas my son and I go to my parents' for 'the day' and then come home in the afternoon to rest, relax and otherwise veg out....my sister and her family are here this year and I simply couldn't stay there all day and visit. I needed some space and solitude. So we came home, I took a nap and my son just left to go back over there. I just can't face it. My food addiction/eating disorder has kicked into high gear and my body is yelling at me because of it. I can't get 'things' back under control in the middle of so much going on. My mother criticized my eating habits at the dinner table the other day--completely unprovoked, it came out of the blue--and I just can't shake off the effects of being humiliated that way. It's been progressively harder to be in the same room with her.
Just so sad....that she has an eating disorder for which she won't seek any kind of treatment and that I am letting her illness so strongly affect my efforts to deal with mine.
I think I just 'hijacked' your chat...but then again, maybe not. We're all at home alone on Christmas night for various reasons...does anyone have any experience in dealing with such family dysfunction?
Tears now....
Merry Christmas!