I wonder if he knew

If he wern't grounded, it wouldn't have been so much fun-. We had to sneak out, mom and dad was in bed. He made a joke as we pushed the car out to the curve. We laughed at our mischief and we felt free.

At the club he winked at me and i laughed up to his beautiful face - he hugged me tight and said no one else is gonna take my place - i was confuses, but i let it go. 

We should get home now, mom and dad's gonna wake up soon. As we laughed and sang he smiled at me. He told me he's not gonna live at home next year. i was sad. he said he'd always be there for me, now how can this be?  There weren't much time to think 'bout that.

I remember screaming tyres and breaking glass, but most of all, i remember the painfull voice i heard last. 2 days later i woke in I C U. Mom was there. Dad was there. They told me that Jacques will never be there again. Few weeks later we cleaned out your room. mom found a written letter addressed to me, and an application form for university.

I forgot most of all i knew, But i rememberd you. I cried for days, weeks, months - it's been ten years now. Wish i could hold you once more, see you smile down on me- wish i could set your soul free.