because I'll miss you

When my daughter was born I remember the fisrt time I held her I looked down and whispered "I have been waiting for you all my life and I will never leave your side."   At this point in time I believe that we share the closest bond that any parent could possibly share with their child.  I cannot count the times that my heart has been broken when I think of the time she will leave me to start her life away from home.  This world can be so cold and cruel sometimes and l want to keep her here so that I can shield and protect her.  Knowing that I cannot do this is the first "cost" of college.  I am trying very hard to instill all the necessary tools to prepare her for what is ahead so as not to suffer the preparation "cost" of college.   I don't think I have been saving as much money as I should for college because secretly it would possibly keep her home.  Realizing now that she could leave home even if  she did'nt  go to college has brought the financial costs into a new light.  Yesterday as I watched my daughter being Baptised at church I really realized and understood for the first time what God must have gone through and how he coped with the costs he suffered when he sent his son to us.  Upon this realization I immediately felt my stress level go down and found peace of knowing that I will be able to cope with whatever this life throws at me because my daughter WILL always be with me when we leave this world.  Allison will some day understand this ultimate bond as she becomes a mother too.  Thanks be to God for choosing me to Be her Mom and sending his son to help me cope with all aspects of this life.  Allison,know always that I love you to Heaven and back.  This is truly the best way that I have found  to "cope" with college issues and all of life's struggles yet.  You may think that college only cost money however it could cost you your sanity if you don't have the peace of knowing your child is well protected and can be guided through it all by the ultimate parent.