Spoiled...

I have had a very cranky day today.... as anyone who has read my earlier rant would know... but even so... I am so aware of how very very lucky I am.

 Hubby went to bed awhile ago .... came out for a sec and I told him I'd got the keyboard (for my LifeDrive) working... he said "of course you did." 

And I thought - for about the millionth time - about how lucky I am to have him in my life.  He always believes in me - even when I don't. He encourages me to go to school - and contributes, even when money is tight - because he has no doubt that I can do it, do it well, and deserve to do whatever it is that I might want to do.

He nags at me to write - and to submit my work - to study - and always, always, to think big, not small.... 

I told him once that one of my profs had spoken as if I was going on to do a doctorate...and I laughed and said "as if" .... and he jumped all over me. He has no doubt at all about my abilities ...and I have no doubt at all that if I wanted to do it he would support me...and if I decided not to, that would be okay too.

I am so lucky to be with him. I am very spoiled.

And then I talked to my kids .... they both popped up on msn. And even though they aggravate me beyond belief sometimes.... and I worry, as moms do ... and I do so wish they would both quit shooting themselves in the feet! -  I thought about how lucky I am to have them....  They're both good kids .... young, perhaps, in some ways, for their ages .... they both have a tendency to be momma's girls ... but neither one of them has ever been the sort of kid that gets into the sorts of trouble that so many do. No hanging out with rough crowds, wild partying or drugs, running away, growing babies, or anything of that nature....  they are growing up...and I am proud of them both...

And then I thought about the many many other things that I have to be thankful for.... the lake outside my front door, the sunsets, ~my~ crane.... Who can live on the water and not be thankful?  Oh, and grandbabies... my hubby's daughter is expecting again ...and not only that, but I get to have her first on Wednesdays.... the only day of the week that I don't have school... he's going to come hang out with me (instead of Fridays when I would be in school and miss him - I hadn't realized how unhappy I was about that until she changed it [today] so that I could spend time with him regularly too)

And school starts again on Monday and this semester I get to teach enough classes that I get a much higher rate of pay and benefits and an office and a name tag and a phone and....  AND I'm teaching multiples of the same course so that I DON'T have the extra prep and stress that to teach the same number of different courses would cause so I can do it well and make good money and still do well at my own courses - the ones I'm taking, I mean....

I have frustrating days...and health issues I could do without....and sometimes I'm downright bitchy .... but oh, how lucky I am to be me.  I am so very spoiled.