I'm the type of person who gave up making New Year Resolutions many years ago.... in fact, the last Resolution I made was to Never Make Another Resolution. Resolutions seemed to be a ticket to failure for me.
Today, after waking up so sad that I was crying even before my eyes were open, I signed on to my Gather screen and for the first time in months I actually noticed my Gather Name.
Life Worth Living... is what I named myself, very tongue in cheek back in August of 2006. I used this name not because I thought I had a "life worth living" because I was sad even then. SO sad that most days my most cognizant thought was that I wished my life would just be done with and over.
Today, even though I woke up sad, I have decided that I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. It's pointless. It makes me pointless. It makes my life pointless. I have decided I do not want a pointless life. I truly want a Life Worth Living.
My resolution came to me in a brillant flash, an ephiphany of some sort. I resolve to find a Life Worth Living before 2007 is over. So I guess that sort of makes it my New Year Resolution. Not necessarily a 2007 Resolution, but more of a 2008 Resolution.
When the year 2008 begins, I resolve to have made a Life Worth Living for myself. It's a nice side effect that it will also positively impact those other people who are exposed to my presence in their lives. I have shunned company so much lately because I did not want to bring anyone else down to my sad level. It is something to look forward to that in 2008 perhaps others will even intentionally seek out my presence because everyone wants Life Worth Living.
Wish me luck.
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