At the end of 2005, I swore off all resolutions for the rest of my life. Faced with my 40th birthday, my daughter's announcement that I was SURPRISE going to be a grandmother, the last semesters of school and the somewhat daunting task of pulling off a wedding with 200 guests within a little over six weeks (we don't use the word "shotgun" but....) - I not only scoffed at the idea of trying to lose any bad habits - I picked up a nasty one I'd dropped for years.
I started smoking again.
So here I am, at the beginning of a new year. School, the wedding, and that 4 decade mark are well behind me. I'm only a little worse for wear. I also have an album full of wedding photos, a great son-in-law, and an adorable grandson thanks to the events of 2006.
Oh yes, that and the filthy habit that seems to only have grown over the past 12 months.
Time to break my resolution not to have New Years Resolutions.
I've quit successfully in the past, and know the best route for me is a nicotine patch and solitary confinement for about 7 weeks. (Nicotine gum upsets my stomach, and my one attempt at using Wellbutrin left me a discombobulated mess.)
I bookmarked the usual stop smoking sites on my laptop, announced to my friends and colleagues my intent before Christmas (only a few have left town) and then bought the jumbo pack of Clear Nicoderm CQ's at Costco on New Year's Eve.
The Australian who rang up my order said, "Good on you girl."
I deadpanned,"Hope you don't see my name in the paper."
The first half of today went fine. Then around lunch time, the urge to wander into the backyard, pull up my favorite deck chair and stare at the now freezing water of our pool while savoring a Marlboro Light hit me like a Union Pacific Freight Train with double locomotives.
I retreated to my favorite armchair and whipped out an Oprah Magazine.
I completely ignored the "O's Smoking Challenge: The Update" article and started flipping pages in search of the book reviews. Quite by accident I stumbled on an absolutely fascinating article by Rebecca Skloot, "Why Is It So Damn Hard to Change?" (It was the opening line, "Nora Volkow wants my chocolate," which hooked me. I also have a serious chocolate addiction.)
Skloot's article is about her search to identify a way to program her body to crave exercise, but it can be applied to aiding in any physical change, including dieting and smoking cessation.
She begins by explaining how dopamine, a chemical produced by the brain when the body experiences pleasure drives us to repeat that experience over and over again. It was no doubt designed to motivate human beings to do basic things such as eating and procreating. If we didn't like those things humanity would be toast.
Unfortunately for me, I "hit the dopamine jackpot" every time I light up.
I was somewhat comforted when I read putting one's body through a drastic change that deprived dopamine deposits was essentially "fighting one of the most fundamental neurological systems in the brain."
So, at least it wasn't lack of character that was making this process so difficult for me.
Her article went on to suggest that the best way to get through a dopamine depriving change was to reward one's self with another dopamine producing experience.
So....if I replaced my smoldering habit with writing in my journal, knitting a sweater or reading on Gather, I'd be set, right? No weeks of irritability, whacky dreams while wearing the patch, oh yes, and the oh so interesting red square marks the adhesive leaves behind.
Not so fast. While tests have proven that finding alternate dopamine producing rewards can happen, there are many variables when it comes to determining how long those new treats will need before they take hold.
"The biggest one is stress. It turns out that the hormones released by the body in response to stress are our worst enemy when it comes to changing. They actually inhibit the frontal lobe which makes the brain revert to behaviors that don't require conscious decisions (eating our familiar foods, drinking, smoking). Not only do stress hormones impair the areas of our brains that need to be active to change, they also stimulate our emotional centers, which send out signals telling us to decrease the stress. And what decreases stress? Food (because it triggers the release of natural opiates), alcohol, and cigarettes," Skloot quotes Michael Schlund, PhD.
Great. I just started a really intense, must-be-on-my-toes-at-all-times job. A stress factory of a new career.
Doctor Schlund goes on to say that not only is it necessary to replace the dopamine experience one is trying to overcome, it must also be "unlearned." This requires a "re-wiring" of "neural circuitry."
At this point, I really had to fight the urge not to throw the magazine across the room, and RUN not WALK to the nearest quickie mart for a fresh pack and lighter. Neural health is something I know a smidget about, due to a history of Alzheimer's disease in the family. I had a feeling it would be necessary to replace my daily Nintendo Brain Age session with the equivalent of brain-bench-pressing 400 pounds to pull this off. Quantum Physics anyone?
I forced myself to keep reading.
Skloot went on to interview Bruce Wexler, MD a neuroscientist and author of BRAIN AND CULTURE, who specializes in studying the plasticity of the human brain. He uses the results of his research to assist schizophrenic patients to improve their recall and hearing processing.
"Successful change requires abnormally intense, uninterupted concentraion and repetition. Why? Because we're working against evolution: Our brains are designed to conserve energy for really important things, like breathing and coordinated motion, even though sometimes, altering behavior is just as important as breathing. Our brains revert to habits when given the change because they require less energy than change."
Doctor Wexler went on to say," There are a hundred billion neurons in your brain. Each one is connected to thousands of others. Everything you're talking about - behaviours and learning and memory - involves the integrated actions of hundreds of thousands of cells in intricate systems throughout the brain."
"By the time we hit our 20's, our brains have lost most of their plasticity."
Luckily - we haven't lost ALL of it.
"The more drastically you restructure your habits," Wexler says, "The more the established pathway that you're trying to change is weakened."
Skloot continues by identifying that "....disabling the old pathway isn't everything. Searching your brain for an existing healthy pathway - even a tiny weak one - and then strengthening it can make things much easier."
Okay, so maybe I could just do some 10 pound brain curls to help kick my half a pack a day habit. There was still hope!
The last doctor Skloot interviewed was Monika Flashner, PhD, a neuroimmunophysiologist at the University of Colorado at Boulder.
"Fleschner is very clear: It's not like you find your (replacement) dopamine jackpot and your brain immeditely says, NOW WE EXERCISE EVERY DAY." Or in my case, NOW YOU WANT TO KNIT/READ/WRITE INSTEAD OF PUFF.
"Then she (Fleschner) tells me something wonderful: All I have to do is force myself to exercise regularly for about two weeks, maybe three, and my brain will start producing a protein called brain-derived-neurotrophic factor (BDNF) which she calls Miracle-Gro for the brain. It increases brain plasticity, so you can think clearly and focus for longer peiords of time. It also increases dopamine neurotransmission, which means the more I exercise, the more reward I get and the more my dopamine system is activated to make exercising a habit I'll soon crave."
And no, it isn't just physical exercise that produces more BDNF.
After I finished Skloot's Oprah Magazine article, I decided to look up a few more things about BDNF. I was curious to see if it was only produced through exercise, or if other stimulai could have the same effect. I already walk my dog a couple of miles each morning. I wasn't thrilled at the prospect that I'd have to "way up the ante" on physical exercise to assist my brain with re-programming. There are only so many hours in my day, and Cookie the wonder dog would probably disown me if I abandoned her for an early morning aerobics class.
According to Wikipedia "voluntary exercise, caloric restriction, intellectual stimulation, and various treatments for depression (such as antidepressants and electroconvulsive therapy) strongly increase expression of BDNF in the brain." That's probably why mild anti-depressants work so well for certain individuals during the smoking cessation process.
Sooooo....if I exercise my brain AND my body, the chances of opening up new neural pathways and in turn alternate sources for my cigarette habit dopamine needs will increase dramatically.
I'm feeling a lot more in control of this whole quitting thing now. I can do more than slap on the patch and grit my teeth. I have the ability to help my brain help my body, and that knowledge is empowering.
References: Why Is It So Damn Hard to Change?, Rebecca Skloot, January 2007 Oprah Magazine
Wikipedia: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/BDNF
National Library of Medicine and the National Institutes of Health: http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/entrez/query.fcgi?cmd=Retrieve&db=pubmed&dopt=Abstract&list_uids=8106000&query_hl=36
Brain MRI image courtesy of www.growabrain.com


Comments: 28
Hellooooooooo Gisela !!!!
How are YOU?
I got a surprise just before my 40th birthday, my daughter turned a year old. That was 15 years ago!
About Dr. Wexler: Our brains have NOT lost much of their plasticity.
Yes, our bodies can CRAVE exercise. I need to retrain my body to do that, I was good at that for many year. Now, on Gather...................all best are off.
you can DO it girlfriend !!!
Wellbutrin, as an antidepressant, DOES have the same active ingredient as the anti-smoking pill, Zyban, but as an antidepressant, Wellbutrin IS covered. It was discovered first as either weight loss or anti smoking, then it was discovered to have anti depressant qualities in its dopamine regulations, as well.
I took it for a while and experienced Euphoria ! Life was like walking through a Swiss Meadow !
Kathryn! So great to hear from you! Oh great, so I'm also missing out on a Swiss Meadow thanks to my intolerance for Wellbutrin? Damn.....some things in life are just soooooo unfair!
Ms Wil! Thanks for the inspiration. Isn't it funny how one will do anything to avoid an ex-smoker when one is actively puffing away - but as soon as there's a will to change these success stories are a true life-line?
Thanks to all of you for such encouraging words. Day 2 is off to a great start!
According to what I read, opening up additional neural pathways and rewarding yourself with another dopamine producing experience can work for ANY type of physical change - including foregoing soft drinks.
I guess the trick is sticking with it for those magic 3 weeks RELIGIOUSLY. It takes that long to get the new wiring in place.
If soft drinks are your poison - high five my friend! You can do it!
Carol - How are you my friend? More importantly, how is that darling new grand baby? I didn't see any pictures posted.....Did I miss it?
My own experience with the problem was not so scientific.
I prayed saying LORD , I ALONE AM NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO QUIT SMOKING .YOU HAVE TO STEP IN AND HELP.
This was in 1990 and sixteen years later I remain NICOTINE FREE.
Now this medicine requires that you put your total faith in HIM.
I cannot say how to do that , that is a different subject altogether.
But do try if it appeals to you.
And remember to say Thanks to HIM too.
My wife and I quit smoking 9 years ago. We went cold turkey with the help of 1800NOBUTTS. I replaced the smoking with exercise and a better diet. I was never much of a "fit" person before, but now, I am in better shape than when I was 20!
If exercise and diet is not your thing, than my advice to you is: do something completely different. Take off from work and take a trip for a couple of days, or start meditating, or change your daily routine drastically. If this seems impractical, remember that this is the rest of your life we're talking about. Don't worry about your job or responsibilities to your family or friends, right now. You're worth all of your attention, and they can all wait until you're finished doing what you need to do. I know that you will succeed this time.
I have heard that quitting smoking is just as difficult as a hard drug addiction, if not more difficult, because you can't get the head start of being restrained in rehab for however long it takes for the initial detox phase. I have nothing but admiration for anyone who tries to kick the habit.
As with any addiction, there are times of withdrawals and periods of recessions. If I am around games, I have an intense desire to play for hours, lost it a couple days ago on my friends PS 3, played for 14 hours straight.
Yea, that shows my addiction. However, the next day I broke away completely, vowing to never play again. I fought it hard and long, while at his house, and only played it to satisfy his desire to play it with me. After he went to bed, that is when I lost it.....
It was such a good game, I deeply regret playing it though. We could have done much better things, all time was lost and I feel so sick about it even now. Such a waste of time, much of my life has been on games sadly.
Gather would be shocked if they knew how much of an addict I and much of the gamers truly are. If I posted up the countless pictures I took from my MMRPGS and other games, which wasted my entire teenage years truly and much of my childhood. In many ways, I feel neglected and like a Peterpan who never truly grew up and is just beginning to learn about the world.
That is just what they describe in their book "Playstation Nation" I will certainly make an article on this soon, because not many know about the truly addictive nature of games that was designed that way by the creators. The problem is only getting worse with the newer games.
Oh and truly the book is more about confronting addictions and overcoming them then about the problems of games, both are there. Many good books are quoted in it as well about addictions, many of which have nothing to do with games.
They talk about the dreaded Everquest and how many lives it has taken, as well as other subjects. About how the holding of a hand by a parent and a prayer give little comfort compared to the drug induced almost coma that a gameboy can give to a child who is going into surgery. The response is greater than if the child had been given an antiseptic. Truly remarkable , I had no idea of what I was getting into....
Oh and I may have never smoked or done drugs, but truly I did something far worse. Played video games, don't believe me that this is just as bad or worse? Well read the research and the book Playstation Nation and you might think differently.
The results may shock and amaze you as it did my family and myself included. Truly I had already broken away from games earlier, wrote a whole article on it too. It was my first article. Think I will revise it later when gather allows me to edit my own articles *clenches fist*
www.videogametrouble.org
So may God bless you in your efforts to stop smoking. I am truly grateful and thankful to Louisiana for putting an end to all smoking in public facilities. My dad suffers from horrible migraines and others can come close to death (Asthma) my friend has this so he tells me about it sometimes.
It truly is a horrible tragedy to have this, because it is increased when around smokers and other forms of pollution. For the good of yourself and others, it is good for everyone to stop smoking.
It may be rough, but the benefits far out way the costs. So I wish you well in your efforts to stop smoking. Well it is 5am, just ran across this as I finished my article. So good night everyone, may you all have a good night's rest and sweet dreams.
NWJ Keep UP the good work and God bless (+=-)
-sorry about any mispellings and errors, tired and will fix in morning
Good night everyone ^_^
It hasn't been easy, but reminding myself that this is a process which isn't entirely grounded in strength of character has been quite comforting over the weeks.
Life has been very full, which is why I haven't been able to respond to you before now. But as always, thank you for your kind words and encouragement. This is one of the reasons why I love Gather so much !