New Year's resolution

This is extremely hard because it means admitting falt on my behalf.  My New Year's resolution is to be a better wife to my husband.  Just about a year ago Christmas Eve I made a mistake and broke the trust that we had by sleeping with another man.  My husband forgave me, but did not forget.  We were doing ok.  Then one night in July we had a car accident and flipped our Ford Explorer three times.  We all walked away from the accident thank God.  This caused us to move from Texas to Colorado due to a job opening and what I thought would be a new start for us. 

While in Colorado the job opening fell through.  We were living day by day because my husband was working day labor due to the fact that we needed the money every day.  Things got hard.  They got even harder when we were forced to live in our van due to not having the money to support ourselves.  I started missing our children, who thank God were with my parents.  I left my husband who was making every effort to support us.  I justafied it by saying that I missed our children.  I just defied our vows by not sticking by him through better or worse. 

While we were appart my husband met someone new.  Being hurt from my affair and me leaving him when he needed me the most, he started developing a relationship with this other woman.  It was to the point that he was about to move in with this other woman.  He was unhappy though because she was not me.  He would confide in this woman the love he felt for me.  Then the other women said something to him that broke it all.  She advised him that he would never be happy until he came home to me. 

 He came home.  I watched him get off the bus with a yearning in my heart that I had not felt in a long time.  He looked so beautiful.  I love him and want to repair the things that we have done to one another.  That is why my New Year's resolution is to be a better wife to him and build the relationship that we once had.