Winter Thoughts

"Only in December can I be inside and still out in the cold..."

I shouldn't listen to that song, it's just too true.

It's the time of year when I cry on both the inside
as well as out

the time I hurt so badly that I cry out not to hurt anymore,
and mean it
a pain no one can heal and a time no one will try...
I lose friends now just because I so desperately crave a friendly voice, a shoulder
lean on, arms to hide in...
A voice.
A friend.

Why?

"I still believe in Magic....I still believe in Love."

(quotes from December, by Kenny Loggins)

Comments: 9

Priscilla P. Nov 24, 2008, 7:45pm EST

I hear you and I know the feelings you describe only I no longer believe in love or magic.

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Leah Christensen Nov 24, 2008, 7:53pm EST

I know the feeling.

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Dame Ruth, Chief Executive Elitist D. Nov 25, 2008, 1:53pm EST

Thank you for posting to this group whose only purpose is to thank you for posting to this group.

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denise e Nov 28, 2008, 11:16am EST

thanks for sharing :)

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Lisa Frost Nov 28, 2008, 4:59pm EST

I just commented on another article that I have seen the good and the bad clash at this time of year. My father, who was the parent that was always there for me, died 8 hrs after my daughter was born in Jan 1987. It was the first major loss in my life, and I was ill equipped to handle it. Trying to get through the holidays still brings up memories of how much I miss my dad. I may not know your exact circumstances, but I know I can sympathize with the emotion. HUGS AND BLESSINGS!

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Elsie Duggan Nov 28, 2008, 6:17pm EST

This is a tough time of year for anyone who has suffered a loss, or feels lost Roxy, and I pray for you to get the strength to come to terms with whatever is bothering you, and rise above it, tough to do, but I am trying too, take care of yourself. Elsie

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Alison H. Nov 29, 2008, 6:02pm EST

Sorry you are hurting

(((hugs)))

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Jerri H. Dec 1, 2008, 5:02pm EST

This can be both the most loving and warm time of year as well as the most bleak and cold. Season depression is more common than many people know. It is also sometimes a description given to those who are in bad situations but do not let the caretaker know what the real trouble is (abuse of any kind) I will keep you in my thoughts and hope you can find someone to tell.

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Roxy K. Dec 11, 2008, 7:54pm EST

Thank you all. Good to be heard.

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