November 13, 2008; 6:10PM
I am so sad right now. I have been since Sunday evening. Jim and I watched a movie that I had ordered from the library called "P.S., I Love You" and it made me so sad. I cried all during the movie. I kept worrying about Jim dying and what I would do and how sad I would be. I laid in bed most of Monday and slept. Tuesday I did lay down a lot but I read more but on Wednesday and today I again slept most of the day. I keep wondering if I can make it one more minute, acutally even one more second seems to much to handle! My daughter tells me to make up my mind that I won't have any bad thoughts today but that doesn't work for me. I can only make it minute by minute when I am feeling like this. It feels like someone has ripped my heart out and has abandoned me. I feel so alone and empty. Who am I...I am so devoid of any feelings except sadness! There is no me!!! I mean nothing... but I trust in God and somehow believe that He will save me forever!!!
rate
email
print
link to this page
Comments: 39
Once you've reached 20 comments, your content will be removed.
Good luck!
Thank you for posting to sparealine.gather.com
Thank you for posting to this group whose only purpose is to thank you for posting to this group.
Put your focus on things that lift you up. Here's something that helps me from time to time. Get out a pen and paper. Start writing about the things you are thankful for. It's called a Gratitude List.
For example
a healthy daughter
a roof over my head
food on the table for us to eat
toilet paper
and so on and so on.
Fill up the whole page. Then when you get down in spirits, pull out that page. You will see there in black and white all the wonderful things to be grateful for.
HUGS TO YOU TONIGHT.
Just stopping by to return your comment and leave you a 10. Merry Christmas. Hope your Holidays are bright.
Sometimes they aren't necessary. But sometimes your brain can really become chemically unballanced and meds help a lot.
Trust God is always right. I'll be praying also.
I don't know if you know Sandi. A Christian woman that writes wonderful short stories with great Spiritual truth. She had a battle with depression and wrote a tiny short story you might enjoy. The Suicide Spirit
It is very worth reading. Please let us know how you progress.
<small>MySpace Comments: Chromaluna.com</small>
My suiggestion is much like the gratitude list above. Make a list of things you enjoy doing. For example, you like to knit. Make the list include thiings that make you happy. Favorite music, food, movie, whatever. Put together a box or place on the shelf so when you are feeling bad you can go to the place. You'll have a few happy things to do and a list of others. Allow yourself to be happy.
i watched it right after i lost my fiancee to cancer, not the best timing in the world
if you need an ear or shoulder send me a message
God Bless and Have a wonderful weekend!
"Helping Hands"
Gave you a 10.
Hello