The Silent Scream

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ADD MY NEW ACCOUNT:graceless22.gather.com P. Jun 12, 2007, 11:43am EDT

O' WOW!! very emmotional.
I relate so much to this. An no one seems to care.
its very hard living like this!!!

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 11:51am EDT

I know Leslie, but we have to join together and keep putting one foot in front of the other. :-)

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Karl Leuba Jun 12, 2007, 11:51am EDT

That is inspiring Carol, A powerful reminder that the Other is often in pain, and may need a comforting touch.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 11:53am EDT

That is correct Karl. One must never judge another's heart or mind. We can only offer support...unconditional.

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Heather C. Jun 12, 2007, 11:55am EDT

Excellent poem! Have been there many times in my life. Sums up how I felt in 1978 after my two children were kidnapped from me from in an ice cream parlor and taken several states away by my ex. The counselor I was assigned to in the program I wound up in told me I should be happy that I even had children as she didn't. I was severely depressed as there wasn't much I could do about what happened, had a hard time coping, they were 4 and 5 years old at the time. I called her Goldilocks as she had blonde hair and was living in a fairy tale.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 11:57am EDT

Oh my Heather. I am so sorry for your pain.

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Heather C. Jun 12, 2007, 12:02pm EDT

I got my children back after almost two years. It was the worst heart ache of my life. I am a suicide survivor and I am grateful to God he let me continue my life. My message to the world is to always have hope, things can change. I have accepted what happened but like a loss like death, you never get over it. I don't think about it much though, but your poem expressed exactly how it felt. Thank you for writing it. I went on in life, got remarried and had two more children. The older three are married and have their own homes...it all worked out and God brought good out of it all.

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Tara R. Jun 12, 2007, 12:10pm EDT

This is a wonderful and very emotional poem, Carol. I used to always feel that I was alone, that nobody could have possibly understood what I was going through. I isolated myself and hid most of my emotions behind anger and outward rebellion. We also need to learn to trust and allow ourselve to scream out loud so that others can support us...we have to rememeber to help other people help us.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 12:14pm EDT

I am learning Tara. Every day I grow more and more. I am trying to help others who feel the same hole in their heart pain, to let them know they are not alone, and it's OK to feel what you feel. Thanks for your comment.

Heather, I am so glad you have a happy ending to such a tragedy. (((Hugs)))

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Trudy P. Jun 12, 2007, 12:15pm EDT

I wish everyone who doesn't understand the pain we go through would read this.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 12:20pm EDT

That's my goal Trudy. I'm trying to get the word out.

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Gorgeous Gabby, a Gather Geeky Gal, and The Giz Jun 12, 2007, 12:29pm EDT

I hear you!

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Debra H. Jun 12, 2007, 12:35pm EDT

Thanks for this Carol it reaches deep.

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manoj sanyal Jun 12, 2007, 12:47pm EDT

emotion filled ...liked.

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Robert S. Jun 12, 2007, 2:26pm EDT

You are to be commended Carol.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 2:27pm EDT

Thank you all.

Audrey, it really is a living hell. But you have to decide if you are going to live or die. The choice is yours. It has taken me a few years, but I have decided to stay until it's my tun to leave.

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Judith W. Jun 12, 2007, 3:32pm EDT

Carol, well said. I hope you find something to soothe and ease your pain.
You made the best possible choice. Wishing you better days!

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 3:35pm EDT

Thank you Judith.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 4:17pm EDT

Lisa, You are very thoughtful. That is the problem. Nobody can take it away.

All you can do is be there for your friend. Let her know you are there no matter what. I am sure you are there unconditionally. Unfortunately, that's all you can do. But that means the world- to have someone beside you who truly cares.

Give her a hug for me.

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Frances G. Jun 12, 2007, 5:34pm EDT

Thank You.

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Janet "Jax" B. Jun 12, 2007, 6:28pm EDT

Good job

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Barb S. Jun 12, 2007, 7:39pm EDT

Wow, Carol, this just breaks my heart!! I can't imagine the hell you've been through. Thanks for letting us know what is going on inside.

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Carol P. Jun 12, 2007, 11:43pm EDT

I will always go through this hell Barb. You never get over it...you have to learn how to get through it. Thanks for your support.

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Teresa L. Jun 13, 2007, 11:39pm EDT

Carol, you have described the internal, hidden pain so well. I'm so sorry you have this experince to share, but thank you so much for helping the rest of us have more understanding of another's pain.

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