I feel good

I had been dealing with a serious depression relapse since November or December, and it seemed like there was no end in sight.  I wasn't motivated to do anything, and I felt more tired then usual.  Thinking clearly was out of the question.  My therapist told me to go walking, but I didn't even feel like leaving the house.  My PMS was a nightmare, and my sinuses were killing, so that added to my misery. 

Then, when I went back to the doctor last week, I told him how I was feeling and how the Trazodone made me feel "out of it" all the time.  He asked me if I had even taken Prozac before, and I told him I did and it worked well.  (It also helped my PMS big time.)  He wrote me a prescription and told me to take the Prozac and Wellbutrin XL together.  WHAAAAAT?  I thought to myself, This man is trying to kill me.  I was afraid that I would be incoherent if I took that stuff at the same time.  Well, since he has the medical degree, I decided to fill the Prozac prescription and shut up.

The doc said it would take up to four weeks to feel the effects, so I wasn't sure what I would be like for a month.  For the first few days, I felt a little "loopy", and I had a slight headache.  On Sunday, I had a sensation in my head as if each half of my brain had separated from each other and something was in between trying to knit them back together.  It was so weird.  I had to work extra hard to write, type or have a complete thought.  Then, the next day, I felt better than I have felt in years.  I could think so clearly, and I finally had a positive.  It actually worked!  If was as if someone had turned on a light bulb in my head.  I could finally see straight.

Thanks to this new drug combo, I've been able to get a lot more done than usual, and I feel more confident and alive.  If I feel this good now, I wonder how I will feel in a month.  God answered my prayers, and I am thankful to Him for giving the doctor the insight to write the prescription.  I sure hope it lasts because I am really enjoying it.