The Last Time I Smiled

I have been trying to remember the last time I smiled.  Not a grin or a half-hearted smile.  I mean a big ol' toothy, obnoxious smile.  You know what?  I can't remember the last time that happened.   Not just smiling, but an occasional chuckle or a gut-busting laugh.  Do my smile muscles still work?  Is my funny bone out of order?  Everything still works (I tested them to be sure), so I think I know what my problem is: I have been taking life way too seriously lately, and I have been focusing on my failures way too much.  I haven't really socialized in a while because I haven't been feeling well, so I hope that will change soon since my doctor adjusted my medication.  Besides that, I also have to follow my therapist's advice and walk three times a week, do search-a-word puzzles to help my concentration, and get back to journaling.  Maybe once I get my body chemistry back in line, it will be a lot easier to show a big ol' toothy, obnoxious smile. :-D