Writer's Grief

I can’t seem to put two words together

as the writer’s block stands in the doorway

haunting every moment and chuckling

as I stare at an empty computer screen.

I try to stay two steps ahead of the grief

and if I stop to write then everything will

catch up and start pouring out on the screen,

leaving tear drops on the keys,

snot on shirt sleeves and swollen eyes

reflecting back from a darkened window.

Crying in bed only leads to tears in my ears,

yearning for comfort from persons who have moved on,

taking their big brown eyes back to their wives

leaving me stranded in my own pain,

hungry, looking for something to fill the emptiness,

even if just two words or three,

put together in a coherent form,

a solid sentence,

emotions moving from heart to screen.

Comments: 12

Nancy S. Jan 20, 2007, 9:25pm EST

Linda, this is very powerful and painful. I wish you peace.

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carolyn koen Jan 20, 2007, 9:46pm EST

I can feel you're heartache. Very well written.

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Faith H. Jan 20, 2007, 9:49pm EST

Linda, I understand this piece all too well. Grief and the blocks.

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Laurie White Jan 20, 2007, 11:15pm EST

Feast or famine it seems, Linda. You either can't start of you can't stop. I seem to write in spurts but am having a spell of writers block myself right now. Maybe after vacation this week I'll have something interesting to write about, if I can put those two words together that is. Hope you find some inspiration soon!

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Lucy C. Jan 20, 2007, 11:22pm EST

You can only feel grief, when you have loved. To feel the lost, to stop relating to a person. Just the thought that yesterday he is alive and his presence give you courage to face life and there is security if he is around. To have lost hims is like going through a dark path of life. Courage and prayer is a strong tool to face tragedy in life. Life has to go on I always tell myself, when somebody dies in the family

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Martha Jette, Author/Editor Jan 20, 2007, 11:51pm EST

Wow! This is very powerful and really gets the point across.

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Connie C. Jan 21, 2007, 2:41am EST

Been there - Done that.
You wrote about it so beautifully

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Bonnie S. Jan 21, 2007, 8:46am EST

Very well written, sorry for you loss. I hope things get better for you.

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Mary McCartt Jan 21, 2007, 11:15am EST

Oh Linda. Losing a mother just leaves this big old hole in your heart. It has been 18 years since my mother has been gone and I still want to pick up the phone and talk to her. I am sure you know that it will get easier and you dont need to hear that right now. Write about your mom and let it all flow out of you. I will keep you in my thoughts.

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