Careful consideration

Careful Consideration

It has taken a lifetime of pondering

For some elements in one's life

Need to be thoughtfully considered

Weiging the total impact

Not only on one's self

But on the entire time/space continuum

So it was not without some fear and trepidation

On a night in late September

Without the support or comfort

Of friends or family

In a strange motel room

Far from home

Late at night

That I brought my struggle

To its final and irrevocable ending.

The sound  and feeling of the climax

Shook me to the hidden places of my soul

There was a moment of searing pain

And then a blissful euphoria

As I floated into a world of freedom and joy.

Those who are wise

And well traveled on  the path

Tell us that peak experiences

Cannot be repeated

By just our willing them

But I had to try

I struggled to the window

Looked out at star filled sky

And cried out with all my strength

"I hate barbecue sauce"

September 28, 2006