The little boy who died at day care would have turned 1 today!

Last September, a five-month old little boy went down for a nap at our day care and never woke up.  He was a preemie, and the autopsy showed he died of "natural causes".  It was a horrible day that can still bring me to tears when I remember it--the frantic call from my husband, who went to pick our 1 year old up from day care only to be met my the police and be told that a baby boy had died inside; the fear of experiencing the death of a child (fear isn't nearly a strong enough word) the shock of knowing I'd bounced that chubby little guy on my knee only hours before he died; the confusion among the kids and the parents; the keening of the mother whose little boy had passed away, bent over in the grass outside as her son's tiny body was carried on a stretcher to the ambulance; the horrible relief that it wasn't my son; the empty-shell that was left of our wonderful day car provider, who immediately shut down her day care and hasn't been able to watch a child since then....

So, little Jonathan, you are not forgotten.  When Sam tries my patience, I think of your parents, who come home from work only to be greeted by an empty house and their memories of you.  I hope they feel you with them today, on what would have been your first birthday.