Nothing could stop carcinoma cells from multiplying as they sought to dominate her healthy cells. She lay in her hospice bed, lungs gurgling, oxygen elusive. Then she was quiet.
He played his fiddle five-hundred miles away. The tune once belonged to his friend, hit by a car, dead. I listened to the song on the radio, fingered my imaginary strings, stroked with my make-believe bow.
Then the segue, the bridge to move from melancholy to exuberance. I rode along, sitting on the E-string, swaying to music neither my sister nor his friend would ever hear again.
His music mended me.


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I guess this particular piece is about as personal as it gets for me and I already feel exposed by it.
Holding my breath and hitting send.
I agreed and reconsidered. :-D
I've already told everyone no funeral but a party with music sung by Cleo Laine, my fave.
Sometimes your work is so profound Susan that it takes a solid grabbing of time with absolutely no intrusion on ones thought to provide what one would consider an acceptable reaction or at least a decent effort to explain fully how the reader has been impacted.
There has never been a time when I didn't stop what I was doing to read what you post or to save it when I could give it my undivided attention. Thank you. Do not be dismayed.
True as ever. My heart nearly breaks with desire to fully impress upon those musicians who've impacted me permanently. I find it very difficult to reign in my emotions on this topic so that I don't come off as a lunatic.
I'd have been here sooner or later, but this week, life has been rather crazy. I know this as well, for even when I was on life support (not expected to live, but I did), even the ICU nurses knew that music could help and heal as they OK'd my husband and son to bring something in that I could relate to and play it in my ears (with earphones).
When my Mom had cancer and knew she was going to die, (it was terminal and I suspect she knew she had it far longer than she let us know), she wrote or was given the words to a song and she said that she could hear the melody in her head. She asked me if she hummed it, if I'd write out the sheet music to it - which I did and it wasn't sad music, it was joyful - as long as she could, she played that song (on her keyboard) and sang along with it. I still have the words written down from back then and I'm privileged to say that I was with her when she passed away.
Oh, this definitely hit more than one chord within me - this is wonderful, Susan. As I'm looking at another death in our very small family right in the face, you've just made me feel a bit better, which isn't easy to do, these days. Thank you.
Marilyn
I found this to be excellent, Susan. When we write from our heart, yes, we are vulnerable. But that is the only way to do it, I think.
I expect you already know my sister flew away, so I certainly identify.