My daughter Sophia needs your prayers

Today I spent all day in court, learning about section 35.

As some of you know my daughter has been suffering from Bipolar and has attempted suicide twice last month.

Well she turned 18, and signed herself out of the hospital.

And we were called by her friends that she had done an over dose of drugs. Well even though we had a cop and ambulance. She is now 18, and basically can do drugs to kill herself if she wants. Was the cops words to me.

Which of course pissed me off, I’m well familiar with the law and told that ass that. If a person who is diagnosed mentally ill, admits to doing drugs and out right states that they don’t care if they die. That means to pink slip them. The cops problem was his shift was over and didn’t want to do paperwork. In order to get my daughter help I needed to file a section 35, speak to a judge to get a warrant, have her brought to the court house. Were she would be evaluated by a court clinician. She was represented by a lawyer and he was good, I honestly thought she was going to walk, because the clinician was talking slow and stuttering.

The judge granted the section 35 and my daughter is now safe.

I don’t know what goes on in her mind, why she feels so helpless. She was doing so good, happy and enjoying being a teen. And to see her today was heartbreaking that she isn’t happy and feels alone.

Its so frustrating that I cant get behind those walls she built, what happened to her, that made her this way?

When some one lets her down she feels as if everyone let her down, that her life is never going to get better.

Im sitting here trying to rationalize it all,

How can I make her see that she is the only one who can make her life better. How can I make her feel happy with herself and love herself?

Comments: 14

Cortney R. Aug 24, 2009, 6:22pm EDT

I unfortunately understand a lot of what she is going through. I have Bipolar and was diagnosed when I was 16 (I am 28 now). I wish I could say why people with this disability are the way they are, but I don't even know myself. I do hope she gets the help that she needs though.

Katharyne T. Aug 24, 2009, 10:36pm EDT

thank you cortney

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.* Sandi * Aug 24, 2009, 7:22pm EDT

im sorry
prayers said

Katharyne T. Aug 24, 2009, 10:36pm EDT

Thank you Sandi

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David W. Aug 24, 2009, 10:23pm EDT

I hurt for you. This is not a situation you blame yourself for. Believe me, I know, more than most. Someday I will share.

Katharyne T. Aug 24, 2009, 10:37pm EDT

David, It is so hard not being able to help her

David W. Aug 24, 2009, 10:47pm EDT

Look for a message. I just sent it out.

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Renita P. Aug 24, 2009, 10:30pm EDT

Is she on medication for being bipolar? I once had a neighbor who had schizophrenia and as long as she took her meds, she was fine. Once she stopped, she turned into a very scary person. She eventually caused the apartment bldg to burn down. I'm not really all that informed on bipolarism, but if there is any way to make sure she takes her meds (if she's on them) that would be a good place to start.

I'll be praying for her.

Katharyne T. Aug 24, 2009, 10:40pm EDT

yes, they keep chaning it around, this one she is on, she said it makes her feel racey, that her mind just keep raceing.. I dont know when they will get the medicine right. I really think once they get the right medicine she will be better. Something that helps her to relax and think clear, not something that makes her have anxiety or thoughts of suicide.

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David N. Aug 25, 2009, 12:25pm EDT

Umm, I really do not know what to say other than I feel for you. This is a touchy subject in so many fields of science, that should I comment on any of the things that aid in causing bi-polar disorder, it would start a bad dialogue on this post.
Having once been thought to be bi-polar by a doctor...I do know that feeling of dispair ...leading to the downward spiral and such, is not comforted by the drugs i was given. I got worse. I even at one point in life, lost all self respect and said **** it. I tried to overdose...but a power at the time unknown to me was there for me.
I went on to have my own demons in which I conquered...and prayer every night was the key. I do believe in God...he loves me...i know now...but then I felt as if he did not.
I would not be here today if I had not turned it around all those years ago. It was my mom that kept telling me that God loved me, and eventually I started to seek him for the answers.
Saying I love you repeatedly can help...I am sure you do this. Now that she has help...keep the I LOVE YOU going full force...
Not sure if you believe in God,,,but personally...He is my rock, my fort, my strength and my salvation. He does allow me to be me...and he is just palin old God to me. He is not an evil force, he is ot a bad planner...just a deep down personal hope and gratitude for life as we live it. I am glad I stopped the drugs(except the occasion toke).
Tell her that the world would be void in so many areas if she did not come to realize her role in making the world a better place. we need her. Tell her I said that i send her my personal prayer, and that i hope she cones to terms with her condition and learns to cope safely. May God bless her Katharyne. May God bless you as well.=)