SMACK! Right Between The Eyes

I try to find a moment of sunshine in each and every one of my days, (excluding my son – he's always my little ray of sunshine). But like any other normal person, I gripe, moan and complain about any little trivial thing that sticks in my craw.

I  had quite the wake up call this morning and now I just want to smack myself for being so upset last night that I'd missed a writing contest deadline. Yes, as a writer this could be a big deal but there will be others. It certainly wasn't a life or death situation. Nor was the fact that the boyfriend didn't rinse his milk glass last night, leaving it to get all scummy, (one of those silly annoyances for me).

But, as usual, I digress. I received an email from the husband of one of my very dear friends today. He let me know that "T" hadn't been in contact with me for good reason…she'd been battling cervical cancer since January. And here I was in all my selfish glory thinking she'd simply been too busy for me.

I cried, man did I cry. She's okay, hopefully, for now. The treatments and chemo has been complete and all looks good. You never know do you? You just never friggin' know. I think what hurts her more than any of it is that she can no longer have children. She has one of her own from a previous marriage, and hubby has 2, but she wanted so desperately to have one that was "theirs". That dream for her is now gone.

This is all still too fresh for me. Even as I write this, the tears are flowing. I wish that I could have been there for her but I understand both her personality and her reasoning. I'll carry this story on one day because I'm sure as she heals more and more she'll be ready to share more with me. But in the meantime, my heart aches and all I can think is how idiotic and redundant all of my supposed tribulations have been in the past 5 months while she suffered, not knowing what would become of her. Knowing, that out of no where, her life had drastically changed forever with one little word…Cancer.