Tired

How much longer

can we endure these

silences? They cut

like a knife right into

the heart of us.

I'm tired of the polite

hello when you walk

in the door. That kind

of hello says so much

more than you know.

I'm tired of the eyes

that won't look into mine

and I'm tired of feeling

guilty for smiling and

feeling happy when you

are around. Misery loves

company, but I am not

going to join you in your

slow descent. I can't.

I'm too afraid of losing

myself.

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Cheryl W. Apr 12, 2006, 11:35pm EDT

Thank you, Hannah.

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Laura G. Apr 12, 2006, 11:38pm EDT

Powerful- and stay strong... rely on the happy things around you... I do hope that your partner finds peace once again!! ~L

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Clare Stella Apr 12, 2006, 11:42pm EDT

One of the very low times in a relationship. Well written and very clear to those of us who have been there.

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Spencer T. Apr 13, 2006, 2:26am EDT

Hoping for the best.

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Antoinette M. Apr 13, 2006, 10:04am EDT

Powerful words. Strong sentiment. Very well written. And you are so brave to be so transparent.

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Serina Matteson Apr 13, 2006, 10:45am EDT

I've down this dance before. Your poem is strong and powerful like you. Don't let him bring you down

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Mandi -Watch where the chalk-white arrows go. To the place where the sidewalk ends. S.S. Apr 13, 2006, 5:27pm EDT

you have no idea how close to this one I am these days... excellent poem!

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Cheryl W. Apr 13, 2006, 6:24pm EDT

Thanks, everyone.

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Priscilla (wishing I was in Costa Rica) ~. Apr 13, 2006, 8:35pm EDT

Sad poem, it says so much. Very well written.

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0000-doublel-0000 Apr 13, 2006, 10:47pm EDT

Cheryl, my heart is breaking reading this. I know the feeling and it's awful. Sending you hugs and lots of support, Cheryl. Do what's best for you and what will make YOU happy.

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John F Walter Apr 21, 2006, 11:08am EDT

I know this feeling of exasperation and discontent, though I have been more guilty of it as a sullen man than the recipient. Forgive me for all the men out there who remain silent in order to take care of their inner woes, instead of opening up. I was raised this way, and it took me years (and 3 years of therapy) in order to get in touch enough with the feminine part of me that turns bitchy and silent. Nowadays, I do express myself better most of the time, but I have to say that this is more than a Venus/Mars thing; it really is that men fear showing their vulnerable side most of the time.

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Cheryl W. Apr 21, 2006, 11:22am EDT

Yes, John...I agree. And it truly isn't a Venus/Mars thing. I went for many many years showing little emotion and never expressing my feelings. Therefore I didn't recognize that the one I love was doing the same. Now, after my therapy, and my awakening of feelings, I am more aware of his silences. It is just something we must learn to work through...and will.

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