I'm a working mother, not by choice. I work because I have to in this economy. If I want to continue the lifestyle I have started for myself and for my family, I must work.
I would much rather stay at home. My mom was a stay at home mom, and I have cousins and friends that are stay at home moms.
The dream is to be a stay-at-home mom.. that is the dream.
It's a dream that may never be my reality, but I wish I could find a way to make it work.
I'm trying to change my habits. I'm saving a lot more money, using coupons. I'm a lot more choosy about when and what I do for some self-pampering, like massages, mani/pedis, haircuts with coloring, waxing appointments.
I'm trying to mentally live off of one income, his income.
I think I'm doing an ok job. But I know its not enough.
We're renting right now, and I would love to eventually own a home. I know that could never happen if I stopped working.
Millions of moms work everyday, why can't I accept the fact that I'm doing a good thing for my family? Why do I have to live with the guilt of not being there for my child all the time?