Work was terrible tonight. Something bad happened there and I don't agree with how it was handled. I don't want to go back. I want to call them tomorrow and tell them that last night was my last night but I can't because of the financial situation that I'm in right now. Things haven't been this bad since those first few years right out of high school.
But it's not all about the money. It's about a lot of other things. It's about the reasons I'm in the mess right now. It's about my horse. It's about relationships and it's about the house. If I could quit working at my second job, that would make some of those other things better but they certainly wouldn't help the financial situation.
So, how do I sort this all out? I've been praying a lot and every time I think things are getting better, they get even worse.
And how do I get out of working this second job? That's what's bothering me the most right now I guess. I'm really getting scared to be there and I need to be at home more, for the sake of my family.