I'm not really sure where to start with this post, but as I've gotten older, I can see my own personal philosophies becoming more grounded and fleshed out. Finding a church with the core beliefs I have, people I am connected to, life experiences and maturity have allowed this. I feel that I know my true self, the core of who I am, if only a faint touch (if this makes any sense, I think I'm on the right track!) The following has been on my mind (and heart) for a while now..
A gift that I have discovered that I have is connecting with people who are underappreciated. Everyone has experienced the feeling of not being welcomed, appreciated, of being the wallflower in the room etc, but what about the people who get that on an almost daily basis because they are quiet, shy or their gifts are just not recognized as being 'important enough' by society. We see them everyday and maybe you yourself feel underappreciated or not recognized. It pains me.
The sweetest and most honest woman I know is under-appreciated A LOT. My current roommate who has so many amazing gifts and a vibrant personality is overlooked. A guy I met today at church, was limitly welcomed, but I could see he was shy and just wanted to find a friendly face to say "I'm so glad you're here!" A close female relative, hugged me today (tight enough to leave marks) because I got her a gift because I thought of her. I could go on of the beautiful people I have met that socieity ignores.
What most people don't realize is that years of not being appreciated wears on even the strongest of souls. They try their best, they reach out and yet they are the unseen. Under appreciation is a disease that spreads, and sometimes even the strongest find themselves sitting alone one night with a pain in the depths of their soul that says:
"I'm not good enough. Why not me?"
You are never alone. There are people, myself included, you don't know you, but NOTICE you. Maybe society casts only a quick glance their way, but there are people who KNOW what a gift they are. You are the great people, you are the light in the darkness.
I may not be the highlight of the party, I may not be appreciated often, invited out and even ignored. But by golly, I'll make sure the forgotten are seen and love the unlovable. I'd rather spend time with the guy who is socially awkward or my SPED kids, the quiet girl who no one appreciates, the girl who breaks down because she feels like a failure and is sitting on the edge of hope and dispair.
Rather than the three 'church leaders' who were too caught up in their hierarchy to say hi to me or anyone they didn't think was worthy. Those who don't associate with those not in a particular religious denomination. Or overrated people. Or people who only associate themselves with those who also drink.
If you ever feel unappreciated, alone or sad, know that there are people who do see you, even if most do not. You are a gift and the world is better because of you.