DEATH ~SUICIDE ~ ANGER
I hate death, it hurts and tear one up inside,, then I hate suicide, this is even worse for us all invovled.
I first want to say that my brother and sister in law nephew took his life today. for the damnest reason. This is where anger come.
The young man was 21 and his parents told him to move out, yes I know maybe harsh word were said, or it was just tough love to make him grow up, now he don't have to, grow up that is.
Hurts,,, death hurts us all no matter how or when someone leaves us. We just hurt and think about those left behind and those gone before hand. As I said it tears us up inside.
suicide is the stupiest way to go, for I love my other nephew, I am angry for what he is putting us through. It is not just him this affects. For his stupidity there are over 100 family members hurting trying to understand. Then not to count his friends, I knew he has many. Why didnt he go to someone, why did he not talk to his best buddy, my nephew. Them two were more then cousin, they were brothers, did everything together. (this is why I called him my other nephew, he was at all our family function).
Hell I knew he had his share of issues, we have talk some out, and I know he talked to my brother at one point, he was told he was always welcome here or at brothers house for anything.
He was the sweetest young man I knew, he call me weekly if not more often to see how Allen was doing in Afghanistan, they were somewhat close in age and when Allen hung with nephew other nephew was there too.
Yet I try to understand why one would want to hurt us now, I feel cheated and pain, OMG what the parent are feeling. I know them and love them dearly, why did he do this to them.
I have very strong issue on suicide and death, and for that matter depression. I do not believe one should be depress for there are thing to work out and think out and talk out. I get sad, lonely yet I never will be depressed, it is a cope out on life to blame some medical issue call depression the reason of your issue. Then to take your own life, hell you aint thinking of others around this affects, you cheat us more then cheat yourself the way it should be.
RIP Bobby for you will alway be love, yes I am very angry at you, for doing this to us all, yet I still love you and always will. 1990-2011
Someone left me this thought on facebook tonite,.
♥ always let your cries be heard * God is ALWAYS listening ♥
I thnk her and God for this chance..
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Comments: 16
I've dealt with a lot of suicides of friends and people from school....some were spur of the moment, some were not "real" attempts (but they went wrong for one reason or another), and one was very well planned. It's a very selfish act and the person doesn't think about the consequences and everyone left behind.
Elsie
And for people who are depressed, they can't believe it's happening to them. You talk like it's something people can control~they can't & thank God the throes of depression didn't find you. It's treated like a mental disorder, but it's not only that~the pain is physical too. For your nephew, it obviously got too much to bear, and being angry at him is not justified.
August Lady is correct. Depression is not a choice, and is quite different from being sad or "down." Suicide, while being a very selfish act, is not about that. The person is in such a dark place they aren't able to even think about how it will affect others, they just want to stop the pain and chaos in their own minds.
It's hard to believe that the person didn't reach out, and there's guilt about not seeing the signs that he was going to do such a thing. Like Marie Osmond said after her son committed suicide, "depression doesn't wait until Monday."
Try to let your anger and guilt go. The sadness will get easier in time... Take care.