Well, hello gather, you are like a long lost friend I am now reuniting with after a couple of crazy years away from you.
So much has happened in my life since I last published a serious post about my life. So much good, bad, and indifferent. I was courted by a man I thought was my soulmate, we had so much fun together I was blinded by love. We ended up married and six months later he comes out as gay. My heart was severely broken at first and I spent a lot of time with really low self esteem and thinking he must have thought I was unattractive our whole relationship, so I must be one really ugly girl.
That was a few months ago. Now I am finally getting my life back. I am remembering who I am, what I like, and finally seeing all the things that weren't so great about our relationship that I overlooked.
I met someone a few months after Justin came out who is pretty amazing that has seen Justin freak out on me, get arrested and comforted me when I broke down and all I could say is "I just want someone to think I'm pretty." I know my emotions are still probably a little bit fucked up, but there's just something about this boy I can't put my finger on that I like. He's totally cute, mysterious, an amazing kisser, actually has a decent job, a hawt car, his own apartment.....sometimes I think he's way too good to be dating me. Someday I hope he will take it to something more serious. Either way, if he eventually floats out of my life and it goes nowhere, I am eternally grateful that he has been there to help me get my self esteem and myself back. There is really nothing I could ever do to repay him for that. Maybe he'll stick around and we'll get more serious and I can try, though. Time will tell. I like him a lot.
Anyways, here's my first real post to gather in years. Maybe I'll be back a little more.