"Pardon Me"; "Who Cares?

If you can count how many times you heard this expression from people around you or maybe friends, you probably loose count. Maybe you even said this expression yourself one time or another. The new expression that young folks say now, "Whatever! I know I can honestly say I have said this expression several times myself. When the shoe is on the other foot and your in the position where you pray and wish someone cared. My door is always open to anybody who comes a knocking, folks that asks for help. I even get Emails sent to me from people I never met, strangers asking me to pray for them or send me their prayer request. I literally stop, right there and than after reading the prayer request and pray for them or their needs. I have already met people online that I have send clothing too or maybe a few dollars and we became friends. A few years ago I met an older woman I believe she was in her early or late seventies. Her Id name was lamb_777. We chatted online up to a month before she passed away. We met as strangers here online and the more we chatted online the more we got to know each other. Our online chatting grew into a wonderful strong friendship. She lived in California, I lived in Pennsylvania. Our friendship bonded into where we started exchanging gifts to each other on every holidays and never missed each other's birthday. My Id name was Harmonyjoy, that is name she called me as a nickname. I loved that name. We exchange each other home addresses and phone numbers. She was a very true friend and she told me I was to. Year before she past away; I sent her Christmas gift out, a precious moments lamp and she took a photo of this lamp and sent it to me to show me she received it. In the same year she sent out my Christmas gift, Mickey Mouse cookie jar, I loved and collected Mickey mouse and she loved Precious Moments. Our friendship grew stronger and stronger, we chatted online practically every day. She sent me photo's of her family and her husband and her dog name Nickey and I did the same and my dog name was Queenie. Both of our dogs died sinced.

Lambs passed away in February of 2007. A month before she died we sent out out last exchanged gifts. The last gift I received was a musical Angel. I thought that was odd she sent me an Angel because every gift before that was Mickey Mouse item. I sent her precious moments for her collection. Than I received a letter from her husband that lambs went to be with the Lord. I was lost and felt that I lost my best online friend. Lambs and I became more than online friends, our friendship grew and grew where we started calling each other sisters. I chuckle because she tell me, remember now I am older so I am the bigger sister. Chatting with lambs, she knew had to make me laugh and the one time I invited my younger sister in our conversation, lambs got very upset because my sister was tearing me down so she scolded the sister and I never invited my sister in our conversation chat again. Lambs knew just what to say when I was upset or hurt by my family and she knew me well. She knew when I was upset or discourage and she knew everything about me and my husband and all about my family and the situation my family put me through. Lambs heard it with own ears from me inviting my sister in our open conversation chat messages. She comfort me many times I fell down in tears. I wish and I  prayed to find another friend like her.

I remember the day September 11, when 911 was all over the news, I just woke up, didn't have my coffee yet and sit down to turn the computer on so I could say good morning to lambs as I always have every morning. This morning 911, as soon my messager box open, she's yelling telling me, "Turn on your Tv, she said than she said it again. Okay, lambs, I am. Why lambs do you want me to turn on the Tv? "You'll see, she said. Just turn it on the news. Man, when I turned on my Tv, on the news channel, I was shocked and breathless what I was hearing and seeing right in front of my eyes. Lambs and I both cried together, we said a prayer, a long prayer. I could talk to her with the mic I had on my computer. She asked me to sing, "God Bless America" for her, so I did.On 911,  President Bush stated; they woke up the Big Green Giant. Many lives were taken that day for sensless reasons by the hands of cold hearted murders. that is all we chatted about all day, Lambs and I, I can remember lambs saying, God warned us, this was going to happen. For awhile she said, America people will gather together and help one another but when it calms down, 911 will be forgotten and America will go back to their old ways. Many lives was taken lambs said, many families lives were torn upside down. She continue to say, American people needs get wiser and start open their eyes because this is only one sign of many others coming after that; of God's warnings. She continue to say; Where will Americans be? and who will they choose to serve? Money or God. Satan or God. My heart burdens for my family, the life style they choose to live and thier negative remarks to tear me down and even the hatred they have and evil plots against me.

God rest lambs soul, but I knew if she was here today and if I needed anything, all I had to do was give her a call. One time we were in need of money to pay a bill and before I finished my sentence, say no more she said, she send it directly out immediately. If she knew I needed funds to use towards a car she be there. I do the same for her. What she always reminded me, "A friend in need, is a friend indeed". A friend is there along your side through thick and thin and walks through with you the bad as well the good, a real friend don't abandoned you when your knock down on your knees. There was a time where she called me to ask me for help. She was in need of funds to get her dog medical attention, I didn't ask her how much and she didn't even have to tell me what for. We were friends and we had each other backs. Here now, remember I said. I met lambs online, she was total stranger and I was afraid to accept her invitation at first because it was the computer. Lambs would not give up. She kept sending me invites, "Oh my; maybe four or five invites to accept her as my friend. Finally the last invite I accepted. That was in the year of 1998, and we been friends from 1998 up to February 2007, she went home to be with Jesus. Now she is my guardian Angel. You know what; I am so thankful for lambs determination that she kept sending me friendship invites to accept her as a friend. A friend she was indeed. She always use to tell me stop letting fear live your life. The next time someone sends you a friend invite accept them. If they end up being a oddball or a devil advocate, that is what the ignore and delete button is use for. You can be cautious but sometimes, we also can be over cautious and miss out meeting new friends that loves the Lord as much as you do. I accepted friends invites after I check out their profile and I  tell them right out; I graduate from criminal Justice so I know how do a background check and I am cautious and careful still yet today. I pray also before accepting an friend invite. If it don't look right or sound right I don't accept it. God will let you know. Just today, I got an friend invite on yahoo messager and something about it didn't seem right, so I refused the invitation. However; I did meet many new people online and true honest friends here online. Over the time we chatted, we earned each other trust, we became friends. the friends I met online were more trustworthy than the relationship I have with my own family.

Now I try to catch myself before I slip out saying the expression, "Pardon Me; "Who Cares? or the expression, "Whatever! The reason I don't want to say; no longer that expression because I ask myself, What if God said that expression to me? How would it make me feel? How would I feel if I felt like God didn't care. This is the attitude I get when I am around my younger sister or family,"Who cares? They only time they want me in their lives or I even exist is when they want something. I know in my heart I can't be that way and I know God wouldn't want me to stoop down to their level because two wrongs don't make a right. I also came to the conclusion with God's guidance to try to stay away and stop trying so hard. In time God will bless me with funds that I need. I always will remember my long time online friend lambs_777 and thank God I accepted her friendship invite and our friendship blossom in to the most wonderful loving friendship that I will always cheerish. I will always feel an emptiness without her and I miss our every day chats and miss her wisdom words, her loving support and her generous and kind heart and her compassion and love for Jesus. I will also miss her encouraging quotes. Lambs_777 was a true and loving inspiring godly woman who loved the Lord very much. She loved God more than material items and life itself. Rest In Peace my Online friend.  

This story I want to dedicated to a dear loving friend, In her memory: LAMBS_777

She loved flowers, so this one is for you friend.

Love your sister, your online long time friend; Harmonyjoy