The Best Thing About Me Is Not You

"only a man was able to awake real animal in me." good you say that not I. oh, well.....the evolution of mankind is sliding back. starting latest with ricky martin. and it's 21st century.....that's the highlight!

for our meet&greet i should have bought you bananas insteed of chocolate and than say:"I Jane, you g.o.r.i.l.a". too bad that i had seen something human and extraordinary in you until the day i met you.

however, your statement here explains what has kept you (and still does) with your peeing sisters on myspace. "ricky has liked woman with grace and style" a quotation of coventryamor from Univision. LOL

your bullies are an evidence more that there is no grace and style in woman you prefer. 

"after coming out i was crying like a baby". that is very animalistic, don't you think? wannabe animal and cries like a baby. what would be ricky martin without contradictions. tears work well on such big screen like oprah show. if your parents and your family knew about your sexual orientation why such depression and fear of rejection? i know you have loved to play with media and that you have lived your sexuality freelly. 

"i knew already at age of 5". "i wasn't ready to answer to Barbara Walters.....but maybe i didn't know really who i was." LOL and *rolleyes* barbara and oprah - let me interview him next time. 

"my mother than started to cry - what's gonna happen to his career?" (Bingo!) "you know people back than were not ready to accept homosexuals". you know ricky, like your mother all people in puerto rico knew you were gay. remember you were in menudo, right? fredy mercury, elton john, boy george, jimmy sommerwille, the pet shop boys, ereasure and many others had a very good career. those are musicians. valentino, versace, pacco rabanne, karl lagerfeld and others have made a very good and successfull career as designers. everyone knew they were gay. the movie "victor, victoria" won an oscar as best picture in 1984. want more? people were very understanding back than. today they are sick and tired of all that gay thing. the only one who has put you under preassure is your peer community. when following all the gay rumors and spoofing back in December 2007, I had found only such conversations in gay blogs and forums. the rest of the world didn't care who you are and with whom you share your bed.

all those who were in front rows and not brain dead, knew you were coming out already in 2005 with your blender interview and related fecal....i mean, animalistic statements. the hardcore way didn't work while it has cost you your reputation. the thailand government has refused to support further projects of your foundation. the interview has caused for a huge public outrage in your native puerto rico and the leader of the conservative party has urged you to resign from your position as president of the foundation. after this primera hora has published your weak public appology. later in an interview for french tv you were claiming that your statements were taken out of context. it contradicts to your public appology where you are admiting that you said what was published in blender. nothing was taken out of context there.

now you're coming out in more soft and "civilized" way. one is for sure, you are a master in using and manipulating media for your own purpose. but all those who aren't animals and whos logos and reasoning are functioning well, won't fell for your stories. according to you while i'm not gay, it is alright to spoof me and defame my caracter wherever possible. there are no laws, authorities or organizations that can protect her, so go ahead and end her. today you are claiming of being proud member of GLBT and I Give A Damn and you are encouraging and protecting all gay men. yet on your Univision forum, when one of the fans who is gay was bullied by your fans in very brutal way, you didn't went out to protect him. you didn't give a damn about him the same way you didn't give a damn about me.  

"god doesn't make mistakes." yes, that's right. god is not you. your biggest mistake was to snap on me and later ignore my forgiviness. you have started together with your staff and your bullies to defame my caracter and to treat me as psycho and stalker. sounds like a "fair game" tactic. how "good" rule model of yours. it shows me only your triviality and hypocrisy, needless to talk about prejudice. if i'm so sick and lonely as your prefered bully is claiming, why does she then copy everything what i would do or say? why did she had the need to use my story of child abuse to her own purpose? poor are people who don't have their own personality! and poor are all those who live and fluorish on costs of others.  

if you have known you like men, and that you have been in love with one of them for the past few years, why did you have the need at same time to contact young girls and woman on myspace? why did you have the need to create privat accounts and contact your "cyber novias" for certain purpose? why did you have the need to do this to Pamela? i had right when writing in one of my previous posts - you will not find love this way, not with men and not with woman. love is not your toy or something that you can manipulate. god hasn't given us the greates gift of all - love - in order to start to behave like animals. how many innocent people are you going to hurt as soon as one of your relationship with man or a woman suck? you are even worse than your formal lover that has left you brokenhearted. at least he has had a reasonable argument when ending realtionship. what do you have to say about your actions and misbehavour? nothing! as soon as you create shit you are crawling back into your mouse hole and wait till everyone forgets about. that is the real animal in you.  

you, your staff and your bullies can continue to defame my caracter until your mouth start to foam, you know. the fact is not me being crazy, the fact is that i know a way too much.  

since you dare to talk about god - you will fear him for all the damages that you have caused to me. god is not stupid and he sees everything. you should leave him out of your low vibe conversations and media manipulation.  

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all above was written before i had seen the interview with oprah. this interview just confirms all my previous thougths and assumptions. i'm aware that you and your mentors (incl.bullies and trolls) are going to deny and mock everything i write. this all doesn't preven't me to tell the truth. they can manipulate you NOT me. but you are never going to realize that since you don't even get a little joke about chocolate. your paranoid tendences let you misconstruing even friendly and neutral acts of mine like forgiviness and understanding.  

me being nice and good to you wasn't reciprocal the same way. and why is that? do you think that i had wanted that my admiration turns in such a nightmare? reciprocal determinism is what you are doing to me.

you know the truth very well, you're just too stuborn to admit. and also knee deep in selfcreated shit that you and your staff are now trying to deny and remove all evidences. so much about being bold.  

here is an idea on how you can engrave your boldness forever.