I don't mean to sound hatefull or selfish, I am trying to understand all of this....
first my Dad, somewhat unexpected, he dies 10/20/09 of 84 yrs of age,,,
then my mom 81, she was poor in health yet I have issuse with this due to Dad passing, she left me 11/3/05
and now rob, I knew he was ill, I sent him cards and all, yet why is this happening.
What have I done, could do differently. I am not understanding this test of me. my family and gather friends.
I so want to crawl in a hole and dissapear. I am not handling this at all....
I am not happy with life right now. not at all


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I think I should be happy with the upcoming Holidays, but can't get out of the depressed feelings I am having
I will be thinking of you and praying for you. God bless you. I am very sorry about the loss of your Parents...and of course because of Rob Appell too!
I know it is not my fault, I just cant comprehend it,
nor do I like it,,
it is rough, I wish I could talk to you right now, I love you, Elsie
the calling....
none of us will ever escape it's song.....
taking us home to where we truly belong....
I am so sorrry this is hitting you so hard though...
hugs .........
It seems like alot to handle all this at once. I wish I knew what to say to help you.
Many hugs Steph.
My Mom died in "76 and Dad in '80, I feel like I was just a a kid. Then, a few years ago my Grandpa died, my 19 year old neice disappeared from IU literally the next month and my grandma died within 9 months of each other. The neice did not get found for several years until a turkey hunter found her bones in the woods and it was discovered she had been shot to death....it took another couple of years to finally solve this crime and the perpetrator is now behind bars.
So, you had your folks for a VERY long time - CELEBRATE their lives and do what you do best, take good care of yourself , your hubby and your son when he gets to come home from the service....no feeling sorry for yourself, your parents would not want you to be that way when they are celebrating in heaven!
Love and hugs for you, I know it hurts, but you will survive this.....
XO