Goodbye Rob

I am devastated. The blue font represents my mood. I know it seems a little silly to be crying over somebody I never "formally" met, yet I am so guilt ridden for not taking more time to actually do that. Rob and I spoke of me flying out and meeting him and vice versa. I would have loved for him to come and visit and do what he always threatened to do. ( kick my boys and my roommates butt for the way they would sometimes treat me)

Rob would help me get through some of my lowest points in life by being brutally honest and also with some laughter. He and others here on Gather helped me find the strength to hang on during a failed marriage. Helped me through the seperation and then the divorce. He was there through my chaotic 17 months with Mike, letting me know he didn't approve but understood why I couldn't let go. Rob was so happy for me and Tim. He knew I had finally found somebody to do me right.

I am not sure if he knew that I finally let Mike go and moved on with Tim, actually moved in with Tim. He would have approved of that very much. I just hope now he is looking down with that smile saying " good job girl- I hate you, I am jealous". Rob would tell me he wanted my men for himself, and I would always tell him no way am I gonna share! He liked my taste in men, lol-- in looks anyways.

Gather truly will not be the same without Robs long and detailed stories. And I will definitely miss his support and brutal honesty. Some did not approve of his way of life or his writing, but more did approve then not. More loved him then hated him. He acted like it didn't bother him if he was not liked, but deep down it did bother him. Just not enough to stop believing in what he believed in. Thats why we loved him so much.

So, heres to Rob, may we eat some cookies today and think of him... I am so sorry for his loss and he will be missed so much, and I hope he can feel the love where he is now.