Still Depressed...

My favorite holiday of the year did nothing to lift me out of the deep, dark recesses of my mind which others call depression.  This time  it has gone on for far too many weeks and I had to make my Psych appt.  He seems to think that I am in a pretty serious depressed mood but should be back to my normal self soon. 

The problem was that I missed my appointment last month and was able to get meds to get me through what I thought would have been through Friday which was my rescheduled appointment but nonetheless I ran out five days prior so my funk got even worse.

I went to Swiss Avenue and to Oak Lawn to check out the folks all dressed up for Halloween but opted against a costume this year because the only thing I could have possibly dressed up as would have been a big fat pumpkin. :)  The atmosphere was festive and fun for the most part, yet I still didn't smile or laugh as much as I would have had I felt better.  At least I made the effort and went out to see people and be seen. 

During worse funks I have been known to stay in and not visit or go out or even have the desire to get out of bed much less even shower.  I am happy to say I am pushing myself hard on this one as I don't like feeling this way.  When I get to feeling this way I always fall back to this song that brings me to my knees and to tears each and every time.  I'm such a melacholy old soul I guess.

Once upon a time there was a tavern
Where we used to raise a glass or two
Remember how we laughed away the hours
And dreamed of all the great things we would do

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Then the busy years went rushing by us
We lost our starry notions on the way
If by chance I'd see you in the tavern
We'd smile at one another and we'd say

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Just tonight I stood before the tavern
Nothing seemed the way it used to be
In the glass I saw a strange reflection
Was that lonely woman really me

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

Through the door there came familiar laughter
I saw your face and heard you call my name
Oh my friend we're older but no wiser
For in our hearts the dreams are still the same

Those were the days my friend
We thought they'd never end
We'd sing and dance forever and a day
We'd live the life we choose
We'd fight and never lose
For we were young and sure to have our way.
La la la la...
Those were the days, oh yes those were the days

I hope that ya'll had a great Halloween!