February 12, 2008
Marvin hasn't replied.
However, FB finally has IM'ed me. I know I'm not supposed to talk about him, but I think it's important to note that I did not give in to my previous pattern of running right back into his bed. I figured he eventually would contact me. I know I should have blocked him but... That would mean I care enough about him to avoid him. I don't mind that he contacts me. I just need to be strong. He was drunk. Said he'd drunk a bottle of wine because there was no soda in his house. No mention at all of the three months of no communication. I told him I was going to Mexico next week and he wanted to know if I was going with anyone. It was tempting to brag about Marvin, but I restrained myself. It's best not to brag about a hot guy who has totally blown you off. FB asked me about Match.com. The fishing for information about love life usually opens up a discussion of availability. I did not take the bait, though, and kept it friendly, but not flirtatious. I'm very proud of myself. It's Valentine's week and I appear to be without a Mr. February. Despite my natural instinct to beg FB to go with me to Mexico, I played it cool. Yup. FB can just drink his wine and drown in his tears 'cause he missed his chance with me. This ship has sailed.
February 13, 2008
I check the obituaries. Marvin must be dead. It's the only explanation that makes sense.
February 14, 2008
Valentine's Day spent with a young cutie. Scotty gave me this little gold chain bracelet. I was with him when he won it with one of those claw machines at Dave & Busters.
“I thought you were going to give this to Roxy for her birthday!” Roxy is Scotty's step-Mom. The woman my husband left me for. I'm sure she's a very nice lady even though the thought of her ties my stomach in knots. And though I really try to avoid thinking or saying anything negative about her, I admit that I do take guilty pleasure in the fact that the name, Roxy, conjures up images of prostitutes or dogs. But she is Scotty's step-Mom so that's as much as I'll sully her name.
“I wanted to give it to you because of what it says.”
I examine the bracelet closely. Lightly engraved are the words, “I Love You.” Tears come to my eyes. Scotty doesn't know (I hope) how lonely I am when he's at his Dad's. I get in my moods of feeling so alone – like no one needs me or loves me. The sweet bracelet and the reminder that I'm loved is just what I need on this Valentine's Day. I'm the luckiest Mom ever.
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Yay! ...I'm VERY excited aroused titillated glad to see this become a reality for you!!
I've been away for several weeks, but I look forward to embracing
fondling savoring each installment as soon as I can.
I've been away for several weeks, but I look forward to embracing,
fondling, savoring.... you!
PS. I was going to learn the html tag for strikeout, but I thought... um, no. All those words are absolutely accurate!
Wonderful story!
I am marking things I would like to change in the book with sticky notes so that I will remember to comment when you put the passage up here. I think it will be easier that way.
Thank you SO much for all your help and encouragement. I'm not sure if I'll keep posting out here. I made it to my 3125 points and I know it's kind of hard to read the book this way. On the other hand, I've gotten some great feedback from those of you that are reading it. I just don't want to be a burden. I may do some of this over on the FaceBook Fan page instead...
In any case, thanks for the suggestion. Yes, I'll change that so we don't have two drunks!
I doubt that anyone would think that it would be a burden if you posted it here. If they did they have the choice not to read it.
I want to figure out if I can get the posts from here to post to my Laptop Dancer FaceBook Fan Page, rather than my personal page. And...guess what? Marvin is one of my "friends" on FaceBook! (I suppose I should unfriend him before posting this chapter!)