Is it that bad???? A story of suicide...

nobody knows
nobody listens
blood slowly flows
away from my heart

so true

Sorry about your friend. My best friend hanged himself 10 years ago when he was 17. I talked to him 4 hours before that and he sounded like his normal self. It was one of the worst experiences of my life.

thank you for the comment, sorry for you friend also....yes no warning.....very bad

Good one -- for one thing, there's a major link between many pharmaceuticals (especially SSRIs = Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors) and suicides (not to mention homicides). Ann Blake Tracy's DrugAwareness.org site has a lot of information on this. Plus you consider all the weird experimental drugs and vaccines they are giving to soldiers (as well as civilians). It seems to me that the people really running our society basically worship death and perversion, and they're hell-bent on reducing our population. There's also a lot of "death education" going on in the schools -- like NBC profiled such a program at Columbine before the shootings took place there (which were also linked to "brain drugs"). If someone has these feelings, we should definitely reach out to them. There are many good natural remedies for depression -- like exercise, Omega-3 oils, and certainly love. Thanks for posting this!

I am so sorry to hear this, Nation. It grieves my heart when things like this happen. There really are no words for the lost or those left behind.

You are in thoughts and prayers.

sad to hear this

Nation, I've been through this, too. I lost a friend to suicide many years ago. My opinion. Don't blame yourself. You'll drive yourself to distraction trying to figure out what you could have done or said. You didn't know his desperation. How could you. What you knew was that he seemed fine. That's what I knew, too before my friend took his life. I'm sorry you lost a friend.

I've known far too many people in my life who chose to leave this world. My younger sister being among them.

I do not think that it is an organized effort to depopulate the earth of too many humans, since if that was the case, it's obviouly not working.

It's a difficult thing to understand. So sad.

It is tough to understand this, is it that they get to the point nothing matters or is life in fact so bad at times it pushes people over the edge. I don't know but sometimes I think that this is one area we will never have answers to. I know right now with economy, violence and how people treat one another, the world is not a happy place sometimes. Sorry you had to experinece this.

I am sorry for your loss

first let me say....... there was nothing you or anyone else could have done to stop this..... once a person has made up their mind to do it .....they will find way.......it is that the pain inside gets too powerful.... it hurts so much..... your mind gets twisted..... so you try to stop the pain..... you cut, ah yes...focus on the pain of the cut..... but soon that is gone..... try something else....booze, drugs......whatever it takes to stop the pain..... the ultimate pain reliever is death........what was it the great bard said......"oh death where is thy sting"...... the sting is but for a moment.....then there is peace......

the depressed are experts at putting on the mask.......no person can see beyond the mask except the one who wears it......i know.... for i am one of them......

Very sorry about your friend. But in reality it can be that bad. I almost thought of doing it myself. I think when things stay bad for so long, one begins to lose hope. My experience has taught me that the lack of hope makes most people feel like there is nothing to live for. Even if it is small...one glimmer of hope that there is a possiblity that things can get better...makes a world of difference. However, the person has to see it. If they can't, then it is hard for others to help. I myself am better (inside), even though from time to time...I still have a setback. Again...I am trully sorry for your loss.

It is unfortunate that you all have to experience this. But, everything comes into our lives on purpose....

My first boyfriend died by suicide. He was troubled about his sexuality. I knew it, but he wouldn't talk about it. He showed all of the warning signs. He talked of killing himself. I ignored it because I figured he was "just kidding." He didn't seem concerned about his future. I ignored it because I figured that he would get serious about his life, eventually. He often talked of his "hatred of his mother." I didn't think he meant it. I thought that he just had trouble communicating (as I did at that time with my own mother). And, he seemed to be always focused on his next "high." I didn't participate because I didn't like the way I felt on recreational drugs. I failed to recognize that drug use is a sign of troubles. I just figured that some people liked drugs. It took me a long time to understand that people reveal signs of a desire to carry out suicide. It haunted me for about ten years. If I only understood then what I understand today. It was one of the most difficult times of my life. Suicide is such a difficult thing to understand, I'm afraid.

Amazing your friends have come around you and helped in a fine and very kind fashion. Yes I had run across this in my life but could not add much more than has been given, yes its very bad and you need help. Only thing I see left out is finding this person in the next world we go on to past this life, you have lots of time tell then so cheer to you. Thank's to all the fine people giving help to Nation in his time of need, ever so helpful and supportive.

gave me chills and made me recall every friend's suicide I've endured over the past few years...when there's no hope, it is that bad

He is at peace now, how can that be bad?

Been there. After several failed attempts I was taught that suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation. I wish others could understand that, no matter how bad it is, it's going to change...

Very sad.

Trying to make yourself happy and rewarding yourself when you succeed is an endless cycle with no beginning. You make yourself unhappy so that you have an excuse to do the things that make you happy.

Doing nice things for other people and rewarding yourself when you succeed is also an endless cycle, but you do not have to go through the part about being unhappy. There are always people worse off than you that you can work on.

Sometimes there is nothing you can do.
Thanks for posting to my group, Anythingwriting

You've written a heartfelt response to a very tragic event in your life.

You have my sympathy.

Perhaps, no one bothered to listen.

This is sad to hear...

Thanks for sharing your post on Helping out one Another

sometimes people can hide what they are feeling they keep it all inside and don't tell anyone what they are feeling so we can't know just listen for key words i know my friends were worried about me when i said that i was ready to give up because of the year i have had but i am doing better now and i am also a religous person so i am afraid of what would happen if i did do it

so sorry to hear...