Reclaiming our inner child; By Ken Parker

First we are ALL children, of God,  he loves all of us.  As we grow into adult hood we often have wounds from our past childhood and new fresh ones in our adult life from all areas.

I am doing a work book on Reclaiming my inner child and will be sharing it with you because some of you here on Gather may have a wounded inner child as well.  I know I do and though some has healed sometimes things trigger and open old wounds we though healed and cause scars to feel painful.   So I am going to embark on a journey because lately I feel very under attack by Satan and his evil cohorts and the world at large.   Satan uses all sorts of situations and people, neighbors, well meaning friends and even family to attack us.   To try and bring us down.   We have to be vigiliant and keep the armour of God on.   Some times we get vunerable because of illness, sorrow and grief or depression.

I know I have shown this lately but also I am keeping God with me even when I feel mad at him I still honor and love and respect him.   All children get angry at their parents and the bible even shows others who were angry with God.   Being angry with him in a proper rightous way is acceptable  he understands.   He still loves us.  As long as we don't renounce him and walk away he is there for us even in our anger, hurt and grief.

The work book I am using asks if I have Depression periods of unhappiness that come and go without logical reason.  The answer to that for me is NO I don't and my unhappiness at the moment is for a very logical reason.  It is grief over losing a beloved grandchild.   It is frusteration over other problems piling up and we have no means of dealing with all of it and don't see any way out right now.   So we keep praying. I am not going to exactly quote this book by Ken Parker but touch on the basic questions.  And how I see them as I see myself in them.

Do you have frequent changes in moods. No not really depends at times occassionally but not often.

Am I anxious?  Do I suffer from sleeping difficulties,  yes and have for years and I do overly worry one of my faults and weaknesses.

Am I afraid of everyday things, going out of the house in a crowd,? No I want to get out more and wish I could.  I like my solitude in the mountains but I also like to get out and lately it has been hard to do.  With car down, finances and child care and also illness, colds etc.

Do I have problems with relationships.?  No I have a wonderful marriage and good family ties for the most part and keep praying about the broken ones and KNOW sooner or later all will be healed as God purposes and wills.  I don't give up, I just rest and then get up and go on and fight through.

Are you unable to settle for less than perfect standards. I do struggle with other peoples clutter and untidiness I hate it.  I like everything neat, tidy, clean and organized and have a family where some are clutter bugs and drop it and leave it lay it is very annoying and often gets me upset.    So see I am sure not perfect.    So that is my first part of healing and reclaiming my inner child to see where I am weak and where I am strong.   What about you.

Go on this journey as I read this work book and share with you where I am at.  It is a self discovery work book.   Right now something I feel I need.   Maybe you do to..  More tomorrow in a day or two as time and situations and mood allows.