Bending time......

Science fiction.  New Technology.  Innovations.

We create and sometimes destroy in an effort to fly faster, go farther, or bring back that which is meaningful and important.  Asking if there are shortcuts or better, more efficient ways to bring about moments that move us forward.

It intrigues me.  It blows my mind.  It frightens me in scintillating ways.

But then there are days that it occurs.....

I will never need a machine.  Or technology.  Not even a shortcut.... to take me back to the place where my spirit trancendenced my physical being.  To go to the place that life tasted real.....and the pain had purpose.....and breathing was free or knew when to stop all together. 

I think of all that I have gotten, gained, or possessed......the memories....are most precious.  I am guilty of trying to reinvent.  Trying to perfect the recipe.  Take the shortcut to the existential thru physical means. 

But then there are days....like today.  That I am reminded....I will never again touch the past.  I may never hold someone in my arms once again.  I surely cannot stop the chain of events.....no matter how much or how tempting it is to be the God Machine.

But my God....the loving God....reminds me gently.....that I am an extraordinary machine.

I listen to a sound, a voice, a song, a scent…..and..I can tune in to the feeling...and feel the beat of my heart.  Feel my spirit rise.  And be reminded that I too am a tool of transcendence.

I won't ever hold that hand again.....but I can feel a presence.

I won't ever share that voice with another....but I surely can hear it...if I will listen.

I won't ever feel the physical weight of their body upon mine....but I feel the heaviness of their being fitting perfectly into the imprint they left behind.

And though I never could fly.  Not with a machine.  Nor technology.  Or an innovation available to me today.  I can.

The only thing melting the wax on my wings....is the heat of reality....or the imagined limitations we apply to our very capable spirits. 

The ones that can bend time.