Childhood is gone forever

I'm laying in bed finding it hard to sleep. I'm contemplating life and the things I'm about to do. And suddenly the tears start to run as I realize that there's not rewind button for life. I now know I have to grow up but somehow it feels like I never got to be a kid. Suddenly I want to revert and demature. I want to make mud pies, catch crickets, and eat berries. I want to play with puppies and eat boxed mac and cheese everyday. I want to play a sport, have birthday parties, and go trick-or-treating. I want to revert back to when life was simple. But when was life ever simple? I miss the things I never did and probably will never do.. I never believed I'd miss being a kid. I guess technically I don. Maybe I just want to be a kid for the first time in my life.. Until that happens, I'll cry and get grumpy. Trying to remain cheerful by indulging in ice cream, money, and kisses. That's where happiness is now. Childhood's gone forever. I'm sorry I missed it..