I am up at 4:37 AM because I had a bad dream about 2 hours ago. I have been tossing and turning trying to get back to sleep for 2 hours. It just is not working. The dream was more wierd than bad and doesn't make any sense at all. I am pretty sure I know why I had it.
I am worried about some friends of ours. They are having some financilal problems. They are not the only ones. I am really worried about a few friends and family members who are barely hanging on by a thread. I knew this family was not in the greatest financial shape as the husband lost his job several months ago and has yet to find another one, but after talking to the wife for a long time at the party Saturday I found out that it is much worse than I thought it was.
She also told me about her mom who is 62 and has all kinds of health problems an no health insurance because she is too young for Medicare. She can hardly see and can hardly walk so she is in no position to work, she tired to get disability but was refused.
This is just one of the Seniors that I know are having financial problems, and it really makes me fear for our future. We were doing fine before the stock market crashed, but we lost a lot of our retirement funds. Hopefully the funds will recover before we retire, but it seems health insurance is the issue for many Seniors who are let go from their jobs before they reach the age of 65 and can collect medicare. It is a long time in the future for us, but still I when I look at how these people are suffering it makes me scared. Not to mention all the worry I have for them.
As I have predicted requests to borrow money are starting to come our way. Just one so far, but I suspect there will be more very soon as many of our friends and family have been without jobs for months now. I wish we could help them all, but there is only so much you can lend out (which usually means give out because when ever we have lent money out we never got it back.) before it starts to affect our finances. And I have to live with the fear that my husband could lose his job at any time too. My business is still existing, but I am not making nearly as much as I was making 2 years ago, and we could not survive on that.
I am sorry for all the rambling, but I guess this is kind of therapy for myself typing this all out. I am going to try to go back to sleep now.