It has been a very long time since I have posted here. Life has had its ups and downs for the better part of the year.
In January I was going through a severe depression and anxiety that kept me from functioning. It lasted all of January and most of February. Then in March, my brother committed suicide. I cannot tell you how this sent everyone in my family into a series of ups and downs and our own depressions and suicidal thoughts. We all took it really hard, especially because it is the second suicide in our family.
March and April were filled with travel to two separate memorial services for my brother, each one in a different part of California. Then another trip to spread ashes in the mountains of Sonora, California.
Then came another trip for Mother's Day which kept me away from home for two weeks. Then my older sister came to visit me, the first vacation she had taken in 14 years! We had a great time. I took her all over the greater Portland and Salem areas.
Since then, I have also been to Baltimore, Maryland to help my youngest daughter find an apartment to rent as she will be starting college there next month. Then after arriving in Oakland, I picked up my youngest sister and drove home the 11 hours! She is here visiting now and I will take her back on Tuesday.
My older daughter moved from one apartment to another this week and I also helped her with her moving.
When I take my sister home on Tuesday, I will be bringing a niece and nephew home with me. They are my brother's grandchildren so I am bringing them home to give them a bit of a distraction from the doom and gloom since their grandfather killed himself. They are 17 and 14 and will be with me for about a week then I'll return them to the SF Bay Area.
That will have me back home the last week of July, just in time to drive cross country with my youngest daughter's possessions as she starts a new part of her life across the country.
See?! There has been so very much going on. I have been through highs and lows and am trying to increase the highs and diminish the lows.
When it's all over in the middle of August, I should be ready for a nice, long rest! Perhaps then I can get back to writing and Gathering.
I miss my connections and the groups I used to participate in. I'll be back, though!
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Comments: 3
Oh my. I am so sorry about your brother, and the rest is just exhausting to read about. I don't know how you are still on your feet at all. I have missed you, but I had no idea you were going through so much. Take care.
You're really had it tough. I'm glad you have brothers and sisters that can band together with you and sort of hold yourselves together. I can only imagine what you're going through.
Wow! It's exhausting just reading about your recent doings. I know what a blessing that can be, though. Despite it all, you will likely feel a sense of "letdown" when it finally lets up. I'm glad to hear of your good times.