First of all I want to say I know we could be so much worse off and there are many many others in worse situations than us but we are just at a point where we feel totally hopeless and I hate it!
I come here becasue no one really knows me here, like family or friends from our town that judge me, I do have internet friends here who like me for me and that I apprecaite more that you even know!
The icing on the cake was today we get a knock on the door, it was the place we have our van financed through. We owed $160 last Saturday but couldn't pay so I went this last Thursday and paid $80, that was every last penny we had. I wanted to show we were at least trying. I told them we would try to come back the next day, I thought my step dad would help us with the other half, he needed to go to the bar instead, so be it, we are not his problem. But the kicker to me is how they come to our house making us feel like scum of the earth becasue we are 7 days and $79 past due, they have no grace period or anything period. Thuis is the secnd vehicle we have purchase through them AND the last and we are on our last year. They were asking tons of personal questions like about my husbands work vehicle, um it is owned by his work, yes it is brand spanking new but we don't pay for it. He is an electrician and the idiot said electricains make good money, yeah when there is work! Not our fault he has only been working four days sometimes, we live week to week and missing one day DOES mess us up not that it is any of his business! He said yeah the economy is bad but we have a 2 million dollar portfolio and only 2 late payments this month and you are one of them. So sorry! He said others are getting a second job to make ends meet. Good for them I say. DH is gone from 6 am to 6 pm, drives 60 miles one way, hes cant get a second job. Im not paying for child care. I am sick 90% of the time so I cant work, can't even afford my medicine. I swear I really dislike people sometimes! I could go on and on. Thuis guy never calls and thanks us when we pay 2 payments ahead or on time all the time just has to pay us a visit the one time we are 7 days late, makes me sick!
I have been trying to do my little crafts here and there and get listed on Etsy but I cant find the cord to my camera and have to use my camera on my cell, how pitiful is that!
You know I was just thinking, I told mr "I need the money you don't have" that we didn't even have money for milk. I wonder if he will call cps on us, the way people are around here it wouldn't suprise me. I do have $20 but I am trying to figure out the best way to make it stretch. We can do it, I know we can but I don't need idiots to confirm we are down, and I mean really down.
Thanks so much for listening to me vent. Don'y feel sorry for me, we will be fine, I just feel sorry for my kids. Trust me they don't do without, we are just a tad bit more stressed than they need to see us be ;)
I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend!
In Christian Love,