Today I am still in a half shocked state. I don't cry easily, but today tears are second nature to me. Last night I held a bleeding child in my arms and watched her died.
I didn't know the child, I learned her name last night from the paramedics who showed up too late to save her.
Last night about 2 a.m. I heard a screech of brakes and then a scream. I threw on my robe and ran outside. On the corner was an accident. I ran back in the house and grabbed the phone to call the police, I was put on hold. I pushed the phone to my neighbor and ran over to the scene to see if anyone was hurt. A woman was in one car crying. I asked if she was hurt, she said no. I then went to the other car when I saw the child on the ground. I started to yell for someone to hurry and get the police and called an ambulance. The other driver then came out of his car and all he kept saying was that the little girl just ran out in front of him. I was on my knees by the child and kept trying to talk to her in a calm voice. She looked at me and said "mama", by then I could not stop the tears, she reached up to me and held me around the neck, grasping tightly.
"My head hurts." she started to cry. I put my hand on her head and it came away with blood. I didn't want to start hollering at people, but looked up at one of the people gawking and asked if an ambulance was on the way. They nodded yes. Someone else came out with a blanket and wrapped it around myself and the child.
I tried to sing a lullabye to the little girl as her cries start to dissapate. I wanted to grab her up and rock her, but I knew that I could do more damage, so I just let her little arms hold my neck down and I kept singing softly. She opened her eyes and said softly, "your pretty like an angel." she then closed her eyes again and stopped breathing.
I didn't let her go even when her arms slipped from me. By then I could hear the ambulance coming. They took her from me and I slowly I stood up. That is when I realized the front of my robe was covered with the child's blood.
The child was 7 yrs. old and she was out looking for her mother who was sitting in a bar while her daughter died in my arms.
I don't know more than that. I told the police today I do Not want to know anymore that...not right now.
I held a good friend in my teens after she had past away, I have held my own child a few minutes after her birth when she died...but I never experienced this kind of death, and I never want to experience these pain ever again.
Please...please, say a prayer or light a candle for this child.
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aww, nellie.... I have had people die in my arms too, but not like THAT!! please say the sorry excuse for parent is in jail! OMG! That poor Child! I am glad she was held in loving arms as she left this world...thank God you were there! Will pray for the child and for you too..such a hard thing to witness....
The same for me, Nellie. I'm thankful that she is back with God again, but sad she had such a short time on earth. I am praying for peace for you and a balm for your senses, I'm sure even angels get ill at heart.
I cannot hold my tears back....what a horrible tragedy.
That is the most awful thing ever I am so sorry you had to deal with that because the mother had something better to do then make sure her daughter was in good care. I hate people like that I hate when little people have to suffer when its not there fault they didnt ask to be put here.
I am so sorry Nellie. This sounds terrible and reminds me of when my little Sister was hit by a car in front of my face when I was but six years old.
Prayers and hugs go out to you and the family who have lost their baby girl.
Oh, Nellie... I can't even begin to imagine... this was a horrible tragedy. I only hope she's safe now.
*hugs* I'm crying now, too. That poor little precious one. As penni said, thank god you were there.
OMG, I can't even imagine what you must be feeling right now. Your child or not, that is just an awful thing to have to experience!
Oh my God, thank youfor helping soothe her in her last minutes. That is such a sad story. You are a very good person for what you did. Just think that she will always know you as her angel.
Such a terrible tragedy.....I am thankful that she had you to comfort her at the end of her short life......Prayers for you and her family.
This is one of the saddest things I have ever heard. I am hoping that the little girl will find peace in heaven, with her life being taken way before it's time. As my mother said when we buried my brother after he took his life "You're not supposed to bury your children". This little girl probably had a very unhappy life. I really hope that this mother goes to jail for a very long time and if she has any other children that they are taken from her and put with loving people that want the responsibility. I am very sorry that you had to witness this but glad you had the compassion to hold that child. She probably felt safe in her final moments knowing that someone showed that they cared, even if it was a perfect stranger.
Sending you a big hug and lots of prayers for you and the little angel.
Oh honey I am so sorry.
Thank goddess she had a real mother with her when she transitioned.
Blessings.
I am so sorry .she was luckie to have you there to keep her calm.and for the mother of that child she should go to jail for the rest of her life.She was so lucky to have an a wonderful person like you there to be her mom for a short time.
OMG! You were truly an angel to that little girl. Her Mother does/did not deserve her...
Oh Nellie... you poor thing. I will say a prayer for this child. I'm glad that you could be there for her.
I don't have anymore words... i'msorry
That is just awful. You were meant to be there for her. Bless you.
I'd be crying, but it upsets MY children. I can't even BEGIN to imagine, and I don't want to. When I started reading it, I was hoping you were writing as a "test audience" for a book, but I think I knew you weren't. I'm SO sorry, for BOTH of you. I'm sorry you had to hold an egg donor's offspring, I'm sorry that child didn't have a mother, I'm sorry that the man that hit her is going to have to live with the guilt for the rest of his life.
I'm GLAD that she at least had SOMEONE loving with her at the end, I'm glad that she won't have to worry about being alone anymore, I'm glad she'll never know what she DIDN'T have.
I HOPE, I PRAY, that the bitch that gave birth to that poor baby is held accountable for her death. That she's plagued with the guilt and horror of what she's done every second of every day of the rest of her life. That karma really is the bitch this "woman" is, that somehow there isn't just JUSTICE, that there is VENGANCE.
thank you for sharing that heart breaking experience. You ARE her angel...and now she will be yours.
Yep, you really are her angel. Don't ever try to pretend you're evil again, ma'am. Cause I know by this you are not.
OMG.... there are no words that come to mind... I am tears and my heart breaks reading this... Thoughts and prayers going out..
That is such a horrible experience. I'm so sorry you had to go through that.
I truly feel for you. I cannot imagine your feelings. Remember that you comforted her when she need comfort.
I am sorry, just so sorry for you, the driver, and for that poor child.
hi i am nellies son johnny. my mom has always talked bout the nice people she meet on here and i thoght i let you know that she tok this really hard and is sleeping real hard now. my aunt took her to her doctor cuz mom was crying so hard she started to have problems breathing. they gave her a valum to help calm her down and now she is sleeping. but i thght i let you guys no what happen becuz it was after she was on here. thank u johnny
Tell your aunt to try to get the doctor to prescribe her a short term prescription. She's probably going to have a few panic attacks, which is what you described happening, over the next few days.
It's nice to meet you Johnny, I wish it were under better circumstances.
While this was a horrible experience for you, I'm grateful that little child didn't have to die alone.
Thank you, Johnnie, for letting us know. You are very thoughtful. Keep watch over her tonight, and we'll pray for angles to comfort her.
You were there when her mother was not, and had her mother been where she should have been, perhaps this would not had happened. I am so glad your loving arms were there for this child, in her last moments. This hits me hard just reading it. I can not even begin to know how hard this must be for you. I may not be this childs mother, but I will say thank you just the same. Hugs to you Nellie, for your kindness.
so heartbreaking!!!! I said a prayer for both of you.
Thanks honey, I've been thinking about your poor mom all day.
Give her my love.
as horrible as that must have been for you, at least you were there to comfort that girl when she needed it most.
I'm so sorry, Nellie. What a difficult and heartbreaking experience. I am glad that little girl had another mother to whisper in her ears, offer her warmth and love. You were the person that little girl needed at the time. I don't know all you are going through but please be gentle on yourself. Allow yourself time to grieve. I will keep you, your family and the little one lost in my prayers.
{{{Hugs}}} I couldn't think of anything worse. You really put things in perspective here. I am featuring this on Gatherers Gallery. I feel so sad. : {
wow! I'm glad she had you there. It's sad the mother didn't seem to care. I couldn't imagine seeing a child die. I'm sorry you had to go through this. wow
I am so sorry nellie, I can't even begin to image what you are feeling. I am teary eyed and very choked up right now..
{{{Nellie}}}
I can't comment. If I started I wouldn't stop and would probably be banned for life.
you did a good thing, Nellie. I hope you can bear it. talk to someone about what happened, someone you trust.
I am so sorry. Thanks for letting us know, Johnny, and hope she gets lots of rest, and help while she recovers from this experience, bless her heart.
God bless her and you for being there for her, Nellie. I've held FAR too many dying adults in my life and without FINALLY learning to vent to someone who has had similar experiences I would have thrown in the towel years ago. As a Pediatric Trauma Doctor, my daughter deals with this on a daily basis. I have NO idea where her strength to do it comes from. I wish for you the peace that passes all understanding...Amen.
My heart goes out to you and this little one~she had you beside her~your care~your comfort~you are an angel~
Wow! This is so sad. I will send my prayers your way!
That must have been aweful. I can not even imagine what that must have been like. I think you were an angle for her. I am glad you were there for her and she passed in loving and caring arms.
I am cryin with you my friend and here if you need me.
She did see an angel, you. I am so sorry you went through this, but know you helped rock this girl right into heaven.
My dear Nellie you are an angel a precious wonderful beautiful angel. This type of senseless death of one so young is one of the most tragic losses I can think of. It seems so cruel that in this world, any chld can be taken. Let me add I find it so hard to believe that any child can be forgotten this way.
Years ago in a neoborhood where I lived a little one was hit and drug by a car. Her mother tried to sue the driver. Many of the neighbors got together and testified against her. She lost and was charged whith neglect and child endangerment. Where where they when she was running in the streets ? This little one would be in her 30s today
Tragic.
That is so terrible !!!
What a tragic story. And one you will never forget. So sorry you had to experience this, the child did not die alone, if that's any consolation to you. I didn't hold my 16 y/o son when he died but I witnessed his death, so my heart goes out to you. I have a candle lit for the child...and for you. (((Hugs))), sounds like you could use a hug.
I can't imagine what you went through or what you are feeling. I'm thankful (as a mother) that you were there for that little girl when her own mother was no where to be found.
Oh I am so sorry you had to witness that. Thankfully you were there to hold her in her time of need.
I will not say anything about the mother. because I don't know if the child was left alone. Or she got out and wondered off when someone else should of been watch8ing her. The mother wil have to live with this the rest of her life...knowing some other woman held her daughter while she was dying.
YOu are such a good person to hold that child. I am glad you were there. Ia m sorry you are talking it so hard.
Was reading your other post so I had to back track and read this one. I can't imagine the sadness you must have experienced. What a preventable tragedy! It helps to accept this little girls passing knowing that she has someone kind to comfort her as she left this world. I can well understand the anger your feeling now. I too am angry that a parent could be so selfish to think of her own desires and place them before the well being of her children.
I just read your other post about this and had to back track to see why you were so upset... I feel for you and that poor child. It is one of the most difficult acts of love and courage to do as you did and ease this poor angel's passage on to the next stage of her life.
The driver of the car that hit her will be haunted for the rest of his life by the knowledge that he was responsible for the death, all be it accidental, of another human being.
One can only hope that the negligence of this so called mother is repaid a thousand fold ... in the manner which she deserves.
I, too, had to backtrack after reading today's post. How incredibly sad... I wish you well.
Nellie: Peace to you.
That's just awful :(
Wow, how horrid for the poor child and for you. I can honestly say I feel your truama right now as I witness to a young man's death on just this Sunday morning. He was 19 and I was right there when he died.
That is so sad. I'm glad you were there with her. I am praying.