On a spring evening I passed away quietly while napping on the couch.
Or perhaps it was a winters night in a burst of glowing agony,
Snatched from my sleep in a twisting paroxysm of pain.
Maybe it was a fall afternoon with the scent of burning leaves
and simmering garlic in my nostrils.
Perhaps a summer morning I arose, filled with purpose,
And surprised, when rolling out of bed, that a long groan and stretch
Led to my legs giving out and a slow-motion collapse on the floor -
And the last thing my eyes perceive is carpet (up close and personal)
And my last thought really is, "I should have vacuumed more often."
Does it matter that I can't recall? That there is no longer a me to recall?
Does it matter that my death was easy or hard?
After all, death in all it's myriad incarnations is our life's ultimate partner.
And it will take us into oblivion when it chooses and how it chooses.
Choice is death's option, not ours.
But just so you know
If I died in a nuclear blast
Death has a sense of irony.
Too bad I was too dead to appreciate it. Oh well.


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BTW, it always made me nervous living so close to nuclear reactors as a kid. Something about fall out or buried waste from decades past...
A blast would be a better way to go than to live with side effects of things gone bad.
For this reason, I don't miss Oak Ridge.
Marilee,
Damn, girl. I grew up in Knoxville and after years living elsewhere I'm back in Knoxville - 10 miles from the source of irony - and the source of my approach to death.
Sonia,
I was napping and woke up with this in my mind. Having blown today's creative impulses, I'm gonna go scramble some eggs for supper now.
I once worked for a company called SAIC in Oak Ridge. The building was fairly new at the time, but sat on a nuclear waste dump from the 40's and 50's. I drank from the water fountain. Thinking about it just sends chills up and down my spine.
I'm also glad I'm still with you - to the degree I am "with" you.
Marilee,
Yes. And they never bothered with "duck and cover" when I was a kid. Our nuclear drills were "walk home and hope you get there." Oak Ridge was a pretty big target.
I didn't actually die, so I ate supper a bit later.
Yes, it is amazing what a few simple changes will do. And the scrambled eggs I had for supper tonight were wonderfully fluffy even with the cheese I added. (Although the real trick is cooking the eggs over low heat.)