I'VE HAD BETTER DAYS

HELLO EVERYONE! MY NAME IS MANDY AND I AM NEW TO GATHER. I'M TRYING TO STAY DRY IT'S RAINING AND COLD OUTSIDE, SO I DECIDED TO STOP INTO THE LIBRARY AND SEE WHAT I CAN'T FIND FOR THE DAY. I'M AN OUTGOING PERSON WITH A BIG HEART FRIENDLY TO EVERYONE.EVEN IN MY CURRENT SITUATION I HAVE BASICALLY BEEN ABANDONDED BY MY FAMILY I DROPPED EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE ( CRYSTAL LAKE IL) AND RELOCATED TO OHIO TO SEE MY FAMILY WHOM I HAVEN'T SEEN IN YEARS ONLY BECAUSE I WANTED TO BETTER MYSELF AND MAKE SOMETHING WITH MY OWN LIFE I COME FROM A LONG LINE OF ALCHOLICS AND DRUG ADDICTS AND I JUST WANTED MORE FOR MYSELF SO I MOVED WORKED AND THINGS WERE GOING REALLY WELL UNTIL I GOT A CALL SAYING THINGS HAVE CHANGED BLAH BLAH BLAH AND THAT I'M LOVED AND MISSED TURNS OUT (YES MY PARENTS) NEVER CHANGED WEREN'T INTERESTED IN CHANGE AND THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUNNY TO SEE ME DROP EVERYTHING TO RUN HOME AND BE THERE FOR ALL THERE FAKE ILLNESSES SO AFTER SUCKING ME DRY OF ALL MY FINANCES THEY NO LONGER NEEDED ME AND HERE I AM BACK IN WOODSTOCK IL, WITH THE CLOTHES ON MY BACK BROKE AND HOMELESS I'VE NEVER IN MY LIFE BEEN HOMELESS! NOT SOMETHING I CAN GET USED TO. BUT I GUESS THATS LIFE I CAN'T GO INTO SHELTERS HERE UNTIL ESTABLISH PROOF OF RESIDENCY ALL OVER AGAIN BECAUSE I'VE BEEN GONE TO LONG MY PHONE IS ABOUT TO RUN OUT OF MINUTES I'M SCREWED I'LL BE 28 ON THE 27 OF THIS MONTH AND NEVER EXPECTED THINGS TO BE THIS WAY . I HAVE MY REGRETS BUT HAD I NOT GONE OUT TO OHIO I WOULD HAVE NEVER OF KNOWN THAT IT WAS ALL ANOTHER ONE OF MY PARENTS TACTICS AND WOULD HAVE HAD TO LIVE WITH THAT WONDERING THE REST OF MY LIFE IM A STRONG BELIEVER IN KARMA AND FORGIVENESS SO ALL I CAN DO IS SIT HERE FOR TODAY AND HOPEFULLY TRY TO FIND WORK REALLY SOON BUT IT'S NOT EASY WHEN YOU ARE A WOMAN HAVING TO LIVE LIKE THIS I'M REALLY SCARED BUT  IF I KEEP PRAYING AND TRYING HARD I'M SURE SOMETHING WILL COME ALONG.