
I am evil by design; fell by the wayside of life,
a living highway toad. Beware the hard road,
there's men covered in ashes with stars upon their chests
They're waiting for me, discretely, because highway dying is
indiscriminate and desperate dealings
Fueled by the maps in my head, I carry on,
much like the departed I leave in my wake, which tastes of true hate
I am the bastard child of everything wild, everything you despise
I tried to get a message from your god but he says I'm not allowed
So sorry, not to worry, I have an alternate plan, I'll be your healer man
The pain you sought to allay will be the one I'll let you receive
I wish I could feel bad for all the pretty things you'll never see,
But I'm an old age old aggravation to a new disease dying to be set free
Pretend I don't exist; this gives me my ultimate release
Shadows will rise and fall; life as you know it will cease
I am the last, of everything
I'm the dog you meet everywhere, watch you when you start to smell the heat
I am the naked wicked messiah, come dance in my garden, my Hell
Let your spirit fly where your thoughts have always dwelled,
adore the penultimate hypocrite, decipher of the last living lie
There will always be more time, in my fire, for thieves and liars
The decadent dance has begun; grasp hands with everyone
Feel the fire; I feel your misery, such sweetness to me,
the fragrance of your death is my loving breath
Wade A.


Comments: 33
I sense so many different feelings mingling in this piece of writing ~ anger, desperation, separateness, anxiety, rejection. It's a very raw and intense write, Wade, which I've come to expect from you. I enjoy your style immensely.
I Love that line Wade.
I am excellently creeped out and oddly turned on....or maybe its oddly creeped out and excellently turned on:)
Feel better? Lots of good lines in here. I'll have to come back when I'm thinking straighter (which could be never, but I hope sooner.)
Hope you guess my name
But whats puzzling you
Is the nature of my game...
Arleen~ Thank you! You do have a habit of disappearing suddenly don't you? Ha ha!
Lori~ Either way is cool. It felt creepy writing it but cathartic at the same time. Thanks!
John~ Sad, maybe, but I feel better.
Sandy!~ Mean? Why most certainly! I mean after all, I have a reputation as a dark, brooding, night crawler to live up to. Ha ha! Yes, I feel much better. Thank you!
Phoenix~ ha ha! You got it!
Flit~ Thank you very much! Your compliment makes me feel a greater sense of accomplishment.
Now tell me, where the f have you been? I've been worried sick.
What!!??! You're getting married? Congrats, dude! I didn't even know! Did I miss the signs that were all layed out for me or something?
"...there's men covered in ashes with stars upon their chests..."
caught my eye as Dr. Seuss' Lorax had something with symbols on...umm...whoever the critters were!
Anyway...There were a lot of lines I liked...and congrats on the engagement!
Regards,
Doyle I <~~~~~
Penni~ Yeah, it's all of those isn't it? ha! Yepper, I be getting hitched. If everything I wrote were directly related to my life I don't think I'd be among the civilized to get married. I'd be locked up far, far away. Thanks!
You didn't get your invite? Damn mail people!
This is a very good write. The expression reaches my senses and fans the melancholy I know!
Thanks
Its been a while but I see you have good news! Congrats on the upcoming wedding! You will have to post lots and lots of pics!
At least I was in on the secret. I'm glad you had a lovely wedding. And speaking of lovely: from one living highway toad to another. . . you really captured the essence of the sweet, tender, hairy underbelly of so-called existence.
I still don't have the energy to Gather as much as I'd love to, but I couldn't pass-up my brother!
Thank you Daniel. I know what you mean, I haven't had the time nor the energy for this place as of late either.
Cheers Bud!
The person speaking this narrative is, in my estimation, a young man older than 21. He identifies with the counter-culture and things underground. His world knows only the treachery of smokey nightlife neon existence and sees all as deserving of this fate. Strains of Nietzsche seem to be whispering.
That's about it in a nutshell William. I like to think he considers himself to be the counter-culture. When I read Kerouac's "On the Road" so many years ago, these were some of the feelings I gleaned from the book.
What you wrote..., emotion-filled, the hell you speak of? I've been there, I know you from there, I felt your raw feelings, the bitterness, sadness, hurt - all of it.
Marilyn
Cheers!