last night at 11:30 pm i got a phone call from my step-dad saying my mom had to have an emergency scope done cause she was bleeding from her stomach and esphogus . we had just went to bed so i woke eric up and we left to go on our 2 hr trip to the hospital. she was on a ventilator and putting out more blood than they were able to get into her. i told her- mom it's me. eric and i are here. her hands were restrained but she tried to lift one up to hold my hand. and boy did she grab on. then i saw a tear streaming down so i wiped it away.
we stayed there all night. for some reason the doctor made her a full code, so they would have done everything to save her. she had a living will. so a 4 am we finally got this resolved. my mom never would of wanted that.
at 11 am she was not responding with any movement to her eyes. so i knew it was only a matter of time. i can still hear here in my head saying "you better be at home taking care of my grand-kitties. so we drove home and i guess i slept an hour when my step-dad called to say she had passed away.
how do you say goodbye to your mother, your best friend someone who you talked to everyday. i am very strong but i don't know if i every will get over this one
please keep me in your prayers.
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My Grandmother was in a situation where I had to tell her..I'ts ok to leave. Go with it and be free!
They were the hardest words I have ever spoken...
Please know that though many of us are strangers...you are in our thoughts and prayers.
May angels grant the peace and closure you need!
I know words cant help now,
so please know I am here, day or night call me,
i care
you and yours will be in my prayers this week
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She was my best-friend as well - I talked to her every day. I still miss her so much.
My prayers are with you. You have a tough time ahead of you.
I know these days are very hard, and with your Mom & you being so close, it will take a long time for life to feel normal again.
((Hugs))
I lost my mom last year, and yesterday was one year since she died on March 3, 2008.
We both lost a part of us, but they are in a better place where we will all be together one day.
My prayers sure are with you.
You don't get over it. You (eventually, but this takes a long, long time) start to remember the good times, but you'll miss her every day of your life. It just eases up some; not enough, but some.
Prayers for you,
Marilyn
We never get OVER things, but eventually the pain does something....I'm not sure what... if it starts to go away, or if it stays as it is, and we just "get used to the idea." Either way, if we lived with the intensity that we lived at the time it happened, for the rest of our lives, we'd all go completely and totally insane!!!!
This is from my experience losing my grandparents in 2004 and 2007. Things are different now in 2009. It still hurts, but it's "different" from the day it happened. Hard to explain. Just wait a few years, months, weeks, days, (probably years) and see how you feel. it's different for everyone.
I still have times when my heart feels ripped in two needing her to be here. It isn't all the time anymore. I can remember those encouraging loving moments like I said.
That will come for you too.
Hugs and prayers for you from another who misses her mom more than anyone who hasn't experienced it can understand.
I'm glad you are talking about it. Let your friends be here for you.
My heart goes out to you... its hard to go through a loss such as this...
My deepest condolences, Tammie. I wasn't there when my dad passed away. I felt bad about it, later on, but I knew that I couldn't handle it.
Oh Tammie, Its the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life and although life went on and all, its truly never been the same and I don't think it ever will be. I get depressed on Mothers day even now, even though its been since 1990. Not being there was even worse, but I think she wanted it that way because when she was lucid here and there, she kept telling me to go home and get her robe and slippers for the next day. She was probably my best friend aside from a Mom, after we got through all those teenage years of constant arguing, being that my Dad died long before and all we had was each other. I feel your pain, but it becomes livable because I know shes with me in my heart and all the memories cannot be taken away. Good luck, I'll keep you in my prayers!
It's been 4 months now, and although you will never forget your Mom, hopefully things are a little better for you.
I have lost so many members of my family. My dad died when I was 18. My husband was murdered when I was only 38. My Mom passed a little over 10 years ago. Since then I have also lost a brother, a sister and a brother-in-law. Death is inevitable,but no matter how prepared we think we are , death of a loved one takes it's toll on us.
I have shed many tears over the years, but each day that passes makes it that much more bearable.
My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family that you all may love and remember all the good times you had with your Mom.