Depressing morning but some good stuff too.

I'm happy and mad and sad and scared and everything else all at once.  So I am just going to let come what may.  Sorry if it sucks! 

I shop at Giant for all of my groceries.  They have bonus points that you earn when you shop- practically every dollar spent is a point.  Some things are excluded like milk.  But with the points you can get rewards like cheaper gas and during the holidays, a FREE turkey.  Throughout the whole year, whenever they are running their gas rewards you are able to save $.10 per gallon for every hundred points you earn.  It can be very helpful.  Though sometimes I will use my rewards only to find the next day that gas prices went down and I paid close to the same price with my discount!

Right now they are doing their Turkey offer.  If you earn 300 points you get a free turkey from their list.  Or you can save up to $.80 per pound off other turkeys.  OR if you don't eat turkey you could use it to get a party-sized Stouffer's lasagna.  And if you earn 450 points or more you earn 10% off your next grocery bill (any one you choose-you just can't use it on the day you request the coupon because it prints off after you pay). 

I am happy to say that this year- even though we are broke- I can provide the turkey for my mom's Thanksgiving dinner!  Well...I am just going to provide the coupon- I know nothing about turkeys.

Yesterday I got mail and it wasn't a good mail day.  I got our bank statement and almost had a heart attack.  Our wonderful savings from the tax returns is now practically gone.  At the end of this month when I write out the house and car payments it WILL be gone.  We are not going to have enough money for a good Christmas for the kids.  I have some gift cards from a few sites that will help a little bit but not enough. 

Yesterday our little friend was having a bad day- refusing to listen to me.  This went on all day.  Quite frustrating.  She kept taking things she wasn't allowed to have and running away with them.  I sat her down for a time out and she just stuck her tongue out, got up and started dancing on top of the chair.  ALL DAY.  I told her she couldn't come over any more if she was going to act like that.  Hopefully today is better. 

Yesterday my friend dropped her daughter off and said something didn't feel right.  I feel that way today.  I just can't explain it- something feels off.  Maybe because I fell back to sleep after my alarm went off and scared myself awake 30 minutes later.  Maybe not. 

I had to turn my heater on this morning and it smells so bad.  Everytime we turn it on it stinks like melting plastic and other horrors.  Probaby because there is some plastic toy that fell in and melted before we could get it out.  Our heat is a gravity furnace.  We have a giant metal grate in the middle of the floor between the living room and dining room.  There is only a small space to get around this grate and poses a great danger to any kids playing nearby.  Which is constantly since it is in the middle of EVERYTHING.  Two years ago Amara got two second degree burns from it.  We had a close call this year with Jonas.  It's too bad it would cost thousands of dollars to change it. 

I'm done.  I am just getting myself more upset now!